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Reminiscing

Saturday, November 19, 2016

As I was blogging about our walk to the park last night, it started me thinking to where I started my journey for my health.

Right before I began my journey, my family and some neighbors decided to walk to the same park we were at yesterday. I am a little embarrassed to admit it, but I couldn't walk the mile to the park. I drove to the park with Trixie and struggled to even walk around the park once. I think that little walk is between 1/4 and 1/3 of a mile, and it took everything in me to do it. After I got around, I recuperated on the bench and watched the kids play.

Looking back I think that was one of those raw moments that grounded me into the knowledge that I was going to do this, I wasn't going to quit. I realized where I was, and where the path I was on was leading me. I didn't like what I was seeing for my future. I was close to 300 pounds. I got sick from every bug that came by. I was hurting emotionally from a very difficult situation we were going through. Somehow though I realized that the choices I was making to cope with the pain were literally killing me.

That was the night I quit running and cried out to God for help. I turned and faced myself where I was and decided to start living right then. I decided to choose health. And baby step by baby step God has helped me to stick with it. As I look back, I am amazed how far I have come. I am not the same person I was when this all began! This journey is so far beyond a simple diet and weight loss that it is amazing!

I look ahead, and see a long way to travel on this journey. I know I will make my destination, and I am so happy with the friends that God has brought into my life to join me on the journey. As I said in a different blog, I have been enriched and encouraged by the friends along the way! They are one of the biggest blessings on this trip!

Good night all!
Hope your day tomorrow is blessed.
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  • JACKIEWALKS4FUN
    Good to have those aha moments. So happy you joined us here on spark. You have come a long way and keep moving forward. Happy to have you as a spark friend, always inspired me to keep moving forward,
    Hope your Thanksgiving was wonderful too. Many emoticon Hope all your days are blessed.
    1630 days ago
  • DIANEDOESSMILES
    Becky hon,,,, I am sitting here with tears. Hon, its these moments which we either fight or give in and soon life ends. I have seen so much of each. I have one of my BFF who was just starting to go through this,,, I had been watching her,,,, I had lovingly talked to her many times, but we both know ,,,that does NOT matter to the one in that spot. If anything they can become angrier. I would of been stunned ,, I KNEW I was "gaining" but, didn't "see it."

    I am so happy that you did decide and ARE now doing SO MUCH BETTER HON !!! It's a THRILL for those us on our team to watch you as you are definitely headed down and down and down !!! As leaders,,,, let me clue ya in,,,, we get such a BOOST watching people achieve their dreams.

    Now for those who may be reading the above. Everyone moves at their own pace. If you didn't read my blog "I had a problem losing weight" Here's the link to copy and paste:

    http://www.sparkpeople.com/
    mypage_public_journal_individua
    l.asp?blog_id=6267058

    I am sorry that did happen Becky and yet, I am also glad,,, as in glad it did help you to walk along this journey. Even more pleased that you are on OUR TEAM !!!

    TY hon,, you have NO idea how many by this blog it can help.
    1639 days ago
  • KMW987
    I'm so happy that you have found your way and are in a much better place now.
    Baby steps are still steps and every little decision counts towards the big picture.
    You're doing amazing and are an inspiration!!!
    1639 days ago
  • CERIUSLY
    "Looking back I think that was one of those raw moments that grounded me into the knowledge that I was going to do this, I wasn't going to quit."

    I needed to read this today!

    "raw moments"! What a powerful statement you made. Turning Points!
    1639 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5803168
    I am so glad that you started your journey here at Spark, I have no doubt at all that you will reach your destination!
    1639 days ago
  • CHERIRIDDELL
    You are doing a fabulous job ! emoticon
    1639 days ago
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