Well, I'm pretty chatty when typing...let's see what I have to say?
So far, this weight loss journey has been hard. When I first put in my goal, I must have had some sort of weird weight fluctuation because the next week when I weighed myself after a week of exercise, cutting calories by probably more than half, and drinking 8 cups of water pretty much every day, I was up by 7 pounds. So that made it difficult. Even though I lost two pounds from that, and then another two pounds from that, Spark People doesn't recognize that I've lost weight yet. And that's frustrating. I missed this week's weight in because I was house-sitting, so we'll see what the scale has to say on Sunday. Sunday I also get to measure myself for the first time, so we'll see if there's any progress there.
One thing that I've found I REALLY struggle with is binge eating sweets. They are my downfall. Everything else, I've been pretty good at sticking to with calories and appropriate serving sizes (with a few bumps when I've gone out to eat). But when I'm driving past a grocery store and I decide that nothing sounds better than something sweet, I end up stopping. My downfall lately has been Little Debbie Swiss Rolls. So gross, right? Sugar, plastic, and bleached flour. I'll even spend 20 minutes walking around the store trying to convince myself to buy even just a candy bar so I'm at least portion controlled. Nope. I buy the box of Swiss Rolls and eat 3 servings. Which is roughly something like 600 calories. And I sit there, not hating myself but just questioning whether they were really worth it. Which it isn't.
I'm not one to cut myself off from the foods I like, or beat myself up for going a hundred calories or two over my goal. I'm still eating out at restaurants and eating pizza and pasta and all the yummy "bad" foods. But I'm ordering salad as a side instead of fries, eating half the meal instead of finishing, etc. But when it comes to sweets, it doesn't matter what kind of portion I tell myself I'm having. I can't stop. And I'm hiding it from my partner. Which makes me wonder if its an eating disorder, or really just that I have no self control. Either way, I'm worried its going to keep me from loosing weight, and I'm not sure what to do about it. (Any suggestions are appreciated)
I'm not really sure if this is helpful for anyone else to read. This felt kind of like I was just journalling. But if nothing else, maybe its nice to know someone else is having the same struggles as you. Or maybe its nice to read about struggles that you AREN'T having. Whatever reason you're reading this, I hope that you have a fantastic day, and that you rock whatever goal you're trying to reach.
Recent Wins: I'm packing lunches every day; I love shrimp which is nice and low on calories; I found out one of my favorite meals (matzoball soup) has less than 200 calories for a RIDICULOUS amount of food; I'm eating breakfasts!
Goal for the next week ending 6/9: Drink the FULL 8 cups of water 5/7 days, figure out new exercise routine by Sunday, and prep at least 2 to-go meals before Monday morning.
Reward planning: Drink water, get a new smaller water bottle with some kind of measuring indicator; prep 2 meals before Monday, go out for lunch on Thursday OR get dinner with my partner 1x during the week (get him to help decide)