Day 4-5 (Remainig positive)

Friday, June 09, 2017

It has only been a few days since I have started to try take responsibility for my weight. But it hasn't been easy. I suffer from depression. I have never sought out help for it except for one time when I was 15 and I begged my father to let me talk to someone. I was diagnosed with chronic depression but once the doctor recommended that I get on medications to control my depression my father stopped taking me.
Some days I find it hard to wake up and I don't have energy to do anything. I use chocolate and coffee to give me the extra kick to get me going. I use both of these to help me feel better. There is nothing more satisfying then to pop a cookie into my mouth or eat a spoon full of ice cream right from the container. I have found that I also eat more then I should when I am trying to calm my nerves or to make myself feel better.
The tracking my food is helping me stay alert of my choices but I don't know how else to deal with the depression. But then there are days that I am happy and have more then enough energy to do my day to day tasks. ( Today just happens to be one of my downers) I am just fortunate enough that after all these years my husband has learned to accept me and all my mood swings. I am having people over for dinner. I am going to cook and entertain I will walk on the treadmill and clear my mind before everyone gets here. emoticon
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    You desperately need an anti depressant. I could not survive without it. Depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain. The anti depressant corrects that. People who think it is dope are beyond ignorant. Save yourself and get help. If the first dru
    1428 days ago
  • KITT52
    maybe you should talk with a Dr. and see what he suggests ....

    tracking your food will help..

    Good luck
    1428 days ago
    I'm the same way. There are days where I'm in a low funk and other days I'm unstoppable. I've noticed when I excerise I feel better about myself and have more energy. Keep it up and remember you aren't alone!
    1428 days ago
    Exercise gives me a good release when I am stressed or anxious!
    1428 days ago
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