7/26. Thank you
Wednesday, July 26, 2017
The other day I posted a blog about starting over again. And I had the usual encouraging comments that I appreciate so greatly. And you know who you are and I thank you.
But I also had a comment that frankly pissed me off. At first. This person doesn't know me or my situation. But quickly turned my blog into something that it wasn't. And turned me into something I'm not. But it also made me think. For what this person doesn't know is I have declared my life already. I have walked away from toxic people already. I have Decluttered my life already downsizing and restructuring. All this is happened since the first of the year. So I am a work in progress.
So for me will power is an issue because my soul always has me giving to everyone else first. I moved in with someone else to take care of them. She likes things freshly made so I shop every day. She likes things freshly baked like cookies and cakes and I oblige her because that's what I'm here to do and because I care for her and I want her to be happy. Because of those things I also indulge and that's because my will power hasn't been strong enough to say no. And that part I am working on. But she is 84 years old and at this point in her life I feel she should have anything she wants. And I am here to see it happens. But I'm also here to see that I stay healthy and I'm happy to.
So I didn't delete her post and it now no longer makes me upset. I realize she doesn't know me. And was really trying to be helpful. Trying to give me advice on how to be one of the 5% successful Sparkys. And I am going to be successful again. I am working towards it every day. And carving out that little bit of time that is just for me to move my body. The eating is healthy for the most part I just need to stay away from any baked goods. I'm going to make it work. And I do thank you for making me look a little deeper and realize that there were things in the past that made me eat for comfort and sometimes I fall back to that place. I don't need to anymore. Life is full and happy. Now it's my time to shine again and reach my goals. Just one day at a time.
So I really do thank you all for every comment made. Both positive and negative not that hers was negative in anyway. It truly wasn't she was looking to give me insight onto why I regained my weight and why I could fail. But I'm not going to fail this time everything is a learning curve and everything is the direction that's going to lead me to my goal.
Make each day a blessing and move towards your personal happy place. Make positive choices and show that positive side. Be an inspiration to those around you. Stand tall and smile. Show you care. But be there for yourself. Take care of yourself. That is where I failed. But I'm not going to fail anymore. I will succeed!!
I'm sorry if I offend anyone by talking about this. I really just wanted to share my feelings and why that post struck a chord. But in the end I'm just very thankful because it shows me that I am still fighting I am moving forward and I will reach my goal.