Sunday, August 06, 2017
I haven't blogged in a while. Aside from being busy with the boys, and getting ready for the baby, I've had alot going on emotionally. I'm excited about my baby girl,but it's been so hard. I've got alot of medical stuff going on, aside from the usual epilepsy. There's the Gestational diabetes, which is super confusing, and makes eating really SUCK. I'm so tired of scrutinizing EVERYTHING I eat. My fingers hurt from getting stuck constantly,and it's just plain depressing. Oh, and I'm now on meds cause I can't get my fasting numbers down.
Then the anemia, which isn't a huge thing except more meds. :(
And scariest of all, is the placenta previa, which means I'll be having a very necessary Cesarean birth. I never wanted one c-section,let alone three. But because of how my oldest was born, I've had complications for the other two. I'm on pelvic rest (no sex, no lifting anything heavier than a milk jug besides the kids - who are 4 & 2). Thankfully, I've had no problems with it, but the restrictions are depressing too, because as there haven't been any problems (which of course is great) it is very tempting to disregard the dr. I keep having to remind myself WHY that's a VERY bad idea.
All in all,it's been hard to be excited, because my day-to-day is so hard right now. I can't wait for it to be September.
Hubby's work cut his hours to practically nothing, which financially sucks,but it's nice that he's home to help out with me being so huge and sick. I will be so glad when Lily is here.
I'm sorry my blogs are so whiny lately. That's why I don't write much. Happy is hard right now. :(