Off the Wagon
Sunday, August 20, 2017
So, I'm eating and eating and eating. I'm genuinely feeling hungry (look I know it's head hunger) but I'm antsy and shaky if I can't get food. I'm not even exaggerating--I'm eating probably ten meals a day.
I've regained 24 pounds since my lowest IN MAY. 24 pounds in three months. I haven't reintroduced processed carbs but almost every other bad habit is back. I KNOW I need to nip this in the bud, but ...it's like the last 40 plus years of my life...going to bed thinking about doing better, waking up committed, disgusted with myself by 10 am. It's insane.
There's a lot going on in my life and I recognize that BUT there is no excuse. I LOVE being healthy and fit. I LOVE people "seeing" me and not being as invisible as I was when I was morbidly obese. I LOVE when I'm sick people don't automatically blame my weight. I LOVE cute clothes.
And--so about the clothes. I can't wear any of the jeans I was wearing in MAY. Many of my cute work outfits I can't wear right now either.
THIS HAS TO STOP.
Posting for accountability.
Today is my day.
Hope your day is good.