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Friday, September 08, 2017

I don't keep a mirror close to me.
No reminders of how I look,
and so it was a shock
when in the store
I saw my scars.
You would say "skin"
but there is more.
Every pound I ate and lost
hangs there now in folds and wrinkles,
in bumps, and veins, and creases.
I feel the tears well up inside,
they're in my throat
and I won't let them out.
They cannot show.
I hide them,
like my scars.
I used to say
I wanted to be cremated
because I didn't want
anyone to know how it felt
to bear my weight.
I don't want anyone to see.
And it will get worse.
I have half again as much to lose.
My stomach hasn't shrunken yet.
It too will hang,
a mass of mess.
Yet the only way is forward.
I will share my scars.
I am not alone.

In the Light of Day
Poem by Abinathra
(c) 2017 All rights reserved

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    You are right, you are not alone. It may not be pretty under the clothes, but the improved health and increased mobility and less pain is worth it.
    1350 days ago
    So very true. Your poem was beautiful, thank you for sharing it.
    1362 days ago
    Very good poem. You're right-you're not alone. Stay strong!
    1385 days ago
  • KATIE520
    You are not alone. My legs look like yours, and my arms and everything else sag too, but I figure they'll still look better empty than full of the fat that was once there. You are doing great! In the end it will be totally worth it! : )
    1385 days ago
    SO PROUD OF YOU!! Love your poem. So true!! I have thought of this and wonder if I can deal. Thank you for this.
    1385 days ago
    Your poem brought me to tears. Its so true. We think when we lose all this weight we will look perfect but we learn that the excess skin dont go away except thru surgery which is costly. Then our self esteem takes a new kind of hit.
    1385 days ago
  • BRENDA196122
    More people relate to this than you know, because they too hide it all.
    1385 days ago
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    I can relate...greta blog
    1385 days ago
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