End of the pity party
Thursday, September 14, 2017
I've been battling excruciating back pain for 6 weeks. I finally went to the orthopedist yesterday. He said I have arthritis in my back which is not a surprise. I told him I've had it for years. It's hereditary from my Mother's side and I've never met a set of stairs I couldn't fall down (or up, there's a reason my Mother didn't name me Grace) but I had never had this kind of pain with it. He said with everything that I've been dealing with this year (the death of my Mother, sorting, packing, cleaning and moving my brother and closing out their house) along with the rugged 5K at a state park I did on July 29th was just more than my back could handle. I had been going to my chiropractor but it just wasn't helping. And she had said no gym for 3 months. Not only was the pain depressing but I had just gotten started at the gym. I was ready to give up, throw in the towel and just stay overweight and out of shape. I even stopped logging in here. I figured what was the point? But, my doctor gave me meds that are already helping and stretching exercises to start on Sunday. I told him what my chiropractor had said about the gym and he said I could probably get back sooner than that as long as I was very careful. But not till we had the pain handled. I go back in 2 weeks and he said if I wasn't better he would do a MRI, but he was confident it was the arthritis. I told him that I had had been trying to get healthier and how frustrating this was. I also told him my Mother lived to 86 years old and had been sick most of my life. I'm basically pretty healthy and I want to live longer than that. He said we were going to work together to get me there. So today, I logged back in and found the article about not letting a injury get you down. It was just what I needed. Well, that and a little relief from the pain. But it seemed like somebody was trying to tell me something. So I'm kicking the pity party to the curb. This is a set back, but, God willing, it's not permanent. I will do the stretching exercises he gave me to strengthen my back. I will get back to the gym eventually and I will go forward on this journey.