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I am Broken

Saturday, December 09, 2017

I've been trying so hard to fight off the depression that is threatening to take me over and undo all my hard work!

I was doing pretty good until the attack on my Precious Lily and now it's been 2 weeks since I've been outside or exercised! I just can't seem to find my Spark!

I am broken in heart and spirit and body, and I don't know how to fix me. Once again I am asking for prayers on my behalf!

It is from the kindness of new and old Friends that I hope to find my way back.

Thank you for stopping by! Please say a Prayer for me!
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    Amen!!! I know depression is one thing I am suffering from; I am in prayer for us both!!! I know they say the sun helps, but the Son heals!!!!!
    1009 days ago
    praying for you my dear sister emoticon
    I'm so sorry for your huge loss Iosing our babies is truly like losing a family member
    1301 days ago
  • ARMY_MOM17
    ..."and this too shall pass"...I grieve with you...Lilly was beautiful and looked so here for you if you need someone to talk to... feel free to reach out...
    1306 days ago
  • ARMY_MOM17
    came across your blog while reading someone else... so, so sorry for the loss Lilly... bought a golden doodle for my son, an only child, when he was in the 2nd grade...Oscar passed 2yrs ago, son wz 20 and i still remember the pain of losing him...
    1306 days ago

    These are such beautiful Scriptures you've selected. Thanks so much for sharing them.

    Do you have an online believing community to connect with? I also have a number of health issues which prevent me from getting out and about as much as I'd like and I found it really helps having an online group I can fellowship with and be a part of the teachings, etc. Wondered if that might not help you too?

    1313 days ago
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    I will certainly be praying for you, I'm sorry to hear that you are hurting. Sometimes we just have to force ourselves to do what we don't really want to, and you will find that afterwards you will be glad that you did.

    blessings, Sue
    1322 days ago
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    This song has always been such an encouragement to me; I hope it blesses you in your time of grief:
    1328 days ago

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    I am so sorry about sweet Lily. We never have enough time with our furry companions, but to have one taken from you suddenly is even worse. Lots of hugs to you.
    1328 days ago
    Hugs and prayers to you!! You have suffered a great loss and it takes time to recover from that. Anyone who has had a pet can tell you that they are more than just our animals - they are truly part of your family.
    1328 days ago
  • RAWN13
    So sorry for your loss hun. Let your soul heal, rushing your grieving will only make it last longer so let it take its course n cry when u need. Gentle hugs hun
    1328 days ago
    I also have a fur baby named Lily. I am so sorry for your loss! Devastating. I am praying for you.
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    1328 days ago
    Please stay strong, and know that many prayers are being said to lighten your heart and lift your spirits. You are not alone, I hope you know that. God bless you, my friend.
    1329 days ago
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    I am so sorry to hear of your loss and the difficult circumstances of that event. It is complicated when the hearts and feelings of many others including yourself are involved and the confusion of the emotions can make it difficult to singly address your grief and get through this difficult moment. Reach out to everyone you can and even to others whom you may not have thought of reaching out to. It is important to find solace and comfort among others. My prayers and thoughts are with you.
    1330 days ago
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    1330 days ago
    Oh, Susan,

    My heart aches for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers that you will find your spark and your way again. May God hold you in His loving arms!
    1330 days ago
    Definately praying for you. Depression is a true blak hole, I am so sorry.
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  • HEDSTS58
    I just read about your sweet Lily. You lost your baby girl. I lost a dog to an attack. I yelled, cried, and grieved. Taking walks wasn't the same. It does get easier with time. You are not broken but bruised. When the time is right, and you will know when, honor Lily's memory and go adopt another baby who needs a Mom. Hugs and prayers
    1330 days ago
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    Do you still have your new puppy? When my depression was severe, I lived for my cats. I loved them and they relied on me so I lived for them while I did therapy, etc. If you don't have your puppy, get another pet! I promise that giving your love to someone will help and especially someone who needs you 100%. Post a blog about your new pet with photos and share with us. Don't be alone. You have people who care. Hang in there. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1330 days ago
    So sorry depression is terrible I suffer everyday
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    1330 days ago
    HUGS my dear. I can only imagine the emotiuonal feelings you have with what happened to your precious Lily. Prayers being said.
    1330 days ago
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