I am not sure what feeling “normal” is any more. I think circumstances define normal. I used to think normal was feeling good, being healthy, feeling safe.
This last year with the autoimmune disease, eye surgery, and other health issues, I have had to redefine what “normal” means, at least for me. I will always be on medication, my weight loss journey will be more difficult, my health issues always here and there is nothing in my control that I can do to change that. So my “normal” needs to be redefined.
I do know, however, that quitting is not an option. Maybe I need to get a new scale since the one I have has stayed the same, give or take, for a few weeks now. I know it has something to do with my body adjusting to the steroids and the stress from the surgeries, and the lack of exercise but I am trying not to become too frustrated and just keep moving forward. Trying to get to that “normal” that I read about.
I am looking at January as a new start. Since my return to SparkPeople, on December 28, 2015, mine has been a slow journey, sometimes very slow. I cling to my mantra to get me through, “Every day is not good, but there is something good in every day.”
This journey is all about choice. The ones we make and how we respond when others (or life) make them for us. I started this journey determined to get healthier. Life had other plans and so I have had to make adjustments. Find that new “normal” if you will. Some things are better, some worse, but all will depend on how I choose to meet them. I am choosing to be positive.
It may take me another 2 years to lose this final 30 pounds but it doesn’t matter, like the poem says, “when life is pressing you down a bit, rest if you must but don’t you quit.”
Making plans and goals for the new year and I will be praying, working for it too, that I have a successful journey in 2018.