You'll never know ...
Wednesday, January 10, 2018
.. My middle child, Alexandra, turns 10 today and she's such a delight, growing up so, so quickly and becoming a truly beautiful young girl.
So it's on my mind how in the next day or two (can't be totally sure of the exact date as hospital time merges into one and it's now 10 years ago lol) I had a brief encounter with "the sister" and how she will never know just how much that touched me and how often I think of her and her sister who I never met. I was pacing the hallway from post delivery to delivery suite with little 2 or 3 day old Alexandra, who was crying, to try and settle her. Out of one of the delivery rooms came a lady who commented "it's so nice to hear a baby crying; my sister is in there labouring/delivering her first baby but he/she (can't remember if she specified) is dead.
I felt so heartbroken for them. We really were lucky too because I didn't labour with Alex and we could have lost her if I had gone into labour, as she had a true knot in her cord. How fragile life is.
Often I think of "the sister" and her sister who will be remembering their wee baby and wondering how he or she would have turned out.
So to "the sister" and her sister, you'll never know how often I think of you and hope things have turned out well for you and how I cried for your loss too xox