I've been slowly slipping on taking care of myself again these past couple of weeks. I don't know if that's why I've come down with yet another cold - this is the 4th one this winter, but as of today I'm feeling under the weather and very tired.
I feel like right now I need to be gentle with myself, but I also need to be consistent with my tracking and activity or I know I won't make any more progress and that will really make me unhappy. In July we have a wedding to go to and while I know I won't be at my end goal by then, I definitely want to make a dent in my weight and just be healthier in general for when we go. I want to feel pretty and sexy and all that jazz when we are enjoying the wedding festivities. It is the story of my life when Summer comes I'm always fat and uncomfortable in the heat and I'm soooooo tired of it. I want this year to be different, so that next year and the year after that is different too. I have approximately 23 weeks until we go and so I have decided to start blogging again on here each week to hopefully help keep myself accountable until our trip. Right now it seems far away, but I know the time will pass whether or not I put in the effort and it will go by before I know it just like all the other weeks behind me.
I would like to lose at least 50lbs by the time we go. I think this is a healthy amount, it is just over 2lbs a week which is completely doable and sustainable. After that it will be approximately 27 weeks until my 35th birthday and I'd like to lose at least another 50lbs by then as well. That will put me in a healthy weight for my height and then I can see where I truly feel comfortable. The last lowest weight I remember being/seeing on a scale was when I was 210lbs in Junior High. I would love to be under 200lbs by my birthday next February!
I posted this in Done Being the Fat Girl and I'm going to post it here too to reiterate why I want to lose weight and be healthier.
I want to lose weight so that....
*I can buy the clothes and lingerie I want
*I can feel strong and capable
*I can take dance lessons with my boyfriend (he used to be a competitive dancer)
*I can feel sexy and beautiful in and out of the bedroom
*I can do things like going up stairs without losing my breath
*I can stop being paranoid about how I look in photos
*I can hopefully have kids and have the energy to look after them
*I can fit into places better (rides, chairs, cars, etc)
*I can overcome this problem I have had my whole life
*I can inspire myself and inspire others
*I can show the people who don't believe in me that I can do whatever I set my mind to
*I can feel better mentally and spiritually
*I can stop feeling uncomfortable in my clothes
*I can stop having to always wear shape wear everyday
*I can live a long healthy life
*I can practice self love and self care
*I can stop being a statistic
*I can get fit and toned
*I can get more tattoos
*I can feel more confident in my career
I need to start loving myself more.