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Tuesday, June 19, 2018

Literally NOTHING to update on my weight loss journey... here is something I posted on Instagram a few days ago...

Basically I keep joking my only talent is not getting fatter. Here is the recap again... highest weight 272, restarted spark (had been on it since 2009 lost some weight and gained it back) at 262 pounds in 2012. Got down to an amazing 184 within about 2-3 years. Stayed between 190-199 for 2 years before starting to slowly regain. I got as high as 237 pounds before I said "OMG what are you doing?! You are about to gain ALL YOUR WEIGHT BACK!" I managed to FINALLY stop the regaining after regaining over half of my weight and I was able to get back down as low as 210. But I have been teetering between 210-220 and more recently the 215-220 mark for a long time. I was as shocked as you when I realized what is seen in the pic above, I weigh the same as I did last June.

Now I want you to know I am not complaining, but I am completely torn and here is why... I will start with the negative but end with the positive. ;) The negative is the absolute obvious. 1 entire year weighing the same exact think. No progress towards Onederland and no progress towards additional weight loss. But let me tell you about this past year. Last June I traveled to Atlanta ALONE from California and had the vacation of a life time. 3 Luke Bryan concerts, I freakin met Luke Bryan for the 1st time, a trip to a restaurant I had been wanting to go to and I met a dolphin at their amazing aquarium. I have done so many things in this past year and I have been living my life to the fullest since 2012 when I started losing weight.

On top of that I have lived my life all while not gaining a pound. Maintaining is an amazing accomplishment and had I just managed to maintain when I was at 184 I would be even happier. (Okay that was a little negative but you know what I mean LOL!!) The fact that I have not been diligently tracking for the majority of that year and have been living my life is a huge accomplishment to me. Many struggle to maintain any loss and I have kept off a 50+ pound loss 6 years after starting. That is a win in my book.

Not to mention I have really gotten a hold on my binge eating. I will not say that I don't ever binge but I was in a binge restrict binge restrict cycle for quite some time. That was how my weight ended up being maintained. In the last 2ish months I have hardly binged, I have eaten what I have wanted when I wanted and managed to eat at maintenance levels without trying. That is a much healthier habit than the horrible cycle I was in and for that I'm grateful.

On the life front I was in an accident on May 19th... it totaled my car. I was not at fault, someone turned left in front of me. They accepted full responsibility. Still dealing with all of that. Luckily my car was a 2006 and 170k miles so I knew the end was near but this isn't how I expected it to happen. I had been saving for a car and so that was a blessing because when this happens and you are forced to get a car out of the blue, you are never prepared. I love my new car it's a 2018 Nissan Rogue and while I miss my old car and am mourning the loss I do really love my new car.

Of course I'm still intently following (it sounds better than stalking) Luke Bryan! I am seeing him in Lake Tahoe & Dodger Stadium in July. Vegas for the I heart radio festival (along with Carrie Underwood, Kelly Clarkson, & Justin Timberlake) in September and I am going to Portland & Seattle to see Luke and sight see around Seattle in October. In addition to that some vegas trips to see Grandma are of course important and trips to Disneyland and the Zoo as well. I really am just enjoying life.

Do I absolutely NEED to get back under 200? No I don't.... would I love to get back under 200? Of course! So I am hoping to slowly inch my towards Onederland but I know that doing anything drastic will send me into that binge/restrict cycle and I don't want to. I don't know if you've heard of Binge Eating Disorder and I know you can't self diagnose, but the symptoms and the things you have to have 3 of to have that eating disorder, I have more than just the 3. It didn't start til I started dieting in 2012 so at this point it might sound like a cop out, but for me getting a hold on the binge eating is more important to me in the moment than losing the weight. Hopefully I can get to where the binge eating is very few and far between and hopefully that alone will allow me to lose a few pounds. *fingers crossed*

Tell me what's going on with you! XOXO
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  • ADVENTURESEEKER
    Checking in on you! I am really, really jealous of your ability to maintain your weight. It is something I've never had the ability to do. Much love, my friend!
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  • BESSHAILE
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    You know I think you have your priorities straight.

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  • CRADLEY
    So glad to see your update!! I'm sorry to hear about your accident but happy it was just the car that was hurt :)

    Great job maintaining where you are at. You have been living your life, travelling and enjoying the things you like to do, all while not gaining. That is a great accomplishment!!

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  • DOG_MOM
    You are absolutely right, maintaining a 50 lb loss is a giant achievement. It sounds like you're living your best life right now, keep it up, and eventually you'll get back to 184 if that's where you want to be.
    886 days ago
  • HMBROWN1
    I think that you look great! And healthy! Enjoy everything!
    887 days ago
  • DESERTDREAMERS
    Oh, Steph, what a story! Glad you weren’t hurt in the accident, & had been thinking about a new 🚘. Watch out, Luke, she’s following you!
    889 days ago
  • SUBMOM2
    Glad you weren’t seriously hurt in the accident.! Sounds like you have a fun summer planned!
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  • no profile photo QUILTERKATHY
    Love your smile in the photos with Luke. So happy that you are living life & recognizing that maintaining a weight loss is a big accomplishment!
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  • THOMS1
    Wonderful to hear from you again and I think you are doing amazingly well. Keep up the great job Steph and enjoy your summer concerts and all activities. emoticon emoticon
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  • MEMEQ2
    Great job. If you can maintain after being in a car accident that is huge! Not to mention being able to maintain with all the travelling and vacationing. That is always hard for me. Sounds like you are doing great. Keep up the good work. I'm sure you will see the scale come down too but that isn't the only measure of success. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    892 days ago
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  • JCMSMILE
    I'm glad you are okay after your accident !! I love you for keeping it real and living your life emoticon
    892 days ago
  • SUSIEMT
    Glad to hear from you again! You are doing very well! You are concentrating on what you need most to get control of the bingeing. I am so glad you weren't hurt in the accident. Take care. Enjoy your upcoming concerts and visits with Grammy!
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  • DEBVNE
    Awwww sweet girl, living and enjoying your life is the BEST! It’s exactly what you should be doing. You have had quite a year; so much learned, with plenty of fun new experiences. Maintaining your weight for an entire year is HUGE...especially since it meant getting a grip on the binge eating. Again, huge! All I can say is that this healthier living stuff isn’t easy, annnnnd it sure isn’t for wimps. Mostly it’s the sum total of the healthier things you do for yourself every day. Add decades of bad choices to the equation, all the better to aggressively squash the less than lovely bits now!!! It matters. Make changes, tweaks, try something new. Like have you ever tried cardio kickboxing? My fav, just something about kickboxing and throwing punches. Hahaha!
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    Sweet new ride, the technology available today is amazing. It helps level the playing field with all those idiots looking at their phone and texting while driving!
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    Happy summer, take great care of you...you’re so very worth it.
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    892 days ago
  • KENDRACARROLL
    Thanks for your life updates!
    Getting over the binge eating and "normalizing" your eating patters is a big accomplishment.
    Right now you're good at not gaining.
    Keep living your life and have fun. Weight loss happens when we let the good habits we've learned take over while we enjoy life.
    You've got this! Enjoy your summer!
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    892 days ago
  • NASFKAB
    You are maintaining that is important too & to do so while enjoying life to the fullest is good news
    892 days ago
  • INGMARIE
    emoticon congrats, you got your head in the right place, living as you should ,Congratulations emoticon emoticon 🌟🌟🌟
    892 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    OH my dear, you are focusing on the right thing . . . living life! Feeling good and doing what makes your heart sing. That's what life is all about, honestly!

    Have fun @ your concerts. And, of course, visiting your Grammy.

    Glad you are liking your new car. As you say, it's hard to lose a car in that way, but . . . gratefully, you're ok.


    892 days ago
  • PENOWOK
    WE know you can do it! So glad you've been enjoying life and that continues! Bad deal on your old car. Hope you can figure out how to manage the binge disorder... That'll really help!
    892 days ago
  • MARYBETH4884
    Sounds like your living a great life. Just make little tweaks here and there to your diet. Binding and restricting is tough to break, so don't backtrack into that. emoticon
    892 days ago
  • EISSA7
    Seems like you are in a good place....lots of wonderful plans, weight is stable, and conquering the binge eating..... emoticon
    893 days ago
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