7/2/18 choices

Monday, July 02, 2018

I'm going to skip the whole "I'm back! this time will be it!" I mean, I sure hope so, but who knows. I've been sure many times. There is a difference this time and that is that I've been diagnosed with autoimmune diseases (which I mentioned in my last blog) which could motivate me in two ways: 1) I know why I'm fatigued and in pain all the time. So all of the negative "I'm so lazy, what's wrong with me" self talk I've had my whole life, is ending. I know why I need to rest and I know it's not my fault. 2) I know that a change in diet, exercise and weight can help my symptoms and diseases, I need to be as healthy as possible for as long as possible, so there's motivation in that. This isn't temporary, this is for the rest of my life, so there is no waiting it our or "when I'm better I'll..." I never know when I'll have a good day or when I'll be in a flare for months, so if I can do anything I better take advantage of that.

Anyway, whether I'm here or not I'm always trying. Between all of this, life, and medication side effects I'm about 10 lbs over my previous highest ever. It's discouraging to say the least. But the alternative of just gaining and gaining and becoming less mobile is not an option.

I know from past experience that I can't change everything overnight, so right now I'm focusing on one choice at a time. I'm trying to form more positive habits like less phone and tv, more reading educational or motivational things, because that feels better. obviously more fruits and veggies, exercise, etc. Even decluttering the house. Step by step, choice by choice.

Like previously when I've come back and blogged or whatever, I'd get discouraged by how many people that I knew are now gone. I get discouraged if my blog doesn't get many comments, etc. But I'm doing this for me. And the more involved I get in groups, etc, the more that will happen naturally. just like writing this. Sure it's updating whoever might read it, but it's for me to get my thoughts straight, etc. So I don't want to be on here all of the time. Once maybe twice a day to check in and make it routine.

Everything in moderation. :)
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    I agree with you that it needs to be one choice at a time, or it can be overwhelming. I have been pretty active on this site since 2011... and I have seen a LOT of people come and go, often just disappearing overnight apparently... it can be a little sad at times that someone I thought of as an online friend just vanished. But I do have a core group who have been here all along who are great supporters ( some of whom I have taken to writing physical letters to through the USPS... I know... snail mail? Really?)
    1114 days ago
  • TANYA602
    Doing this for you is what it's all about. And I am always here, maybe not always as much on SP as I used to be (and should be), but here to cheer you on, share recipes and exercises and encouragement. I wish we lived closer because I have a feeling we'd be good friends for one another.

    I just watched Hannah Gadsby Nanette on Netflix last nite and it was pretty relevant to what we feel about so many things in life right now.

    In losing my weight I've learned so much, and not a single day goes by that I am not in pain in one place or another. At my age, I regret that I waited so long to lose the weight because I know it took its toll on my body. I didn't have any excuses except for pure laziness, a love for food in every bad and comforting form, and frustration with some things at home. I really hope that the diagnosis and medical information you get can help you in this stage of your journey. I've googled your condition to try to learn more so that I can be supportive when you need it.

    Sending hugs!
    1116 days ago
    Welcome back!
    1120 days ago
    It's all about choices and progress over perfection. Glad our back.
    1120 days ago
    Yes, do it for you. Things can be hard and it's easy for me to get discouraged as well, but you can do it. We can make this work for us!
    1120 days ago
    Lifestyle change
    1120 days ago
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