Chugging right a long
Wednesday, September 05, 2018
I got a little off track with my food recently. First I thought I just needed to be a little more lenient with myself and treats. I would derail from my planned meals occasionally and make some swaps. I was not really over eating as in stuffing myself or binging but my food choices weren't great for my body. Past few days, I can just feel it. Digestion is off, very bloated, and I had indigestion which I rarely get.
For going on 3 weeks now, I've been just tired of my food. I made a few changes, but I noticed that I just don't feel satisfied. At first, I told myself it's stress related. Then I told myself I just have to deal with it because of effort to prepare something different, money, etc. I even rationalized keeping things the same because what I wanted had too many carbs, but when I would eat something else you know what it was... carbs LOL.
I decided that I probably need to plan to eat more because lately I feel hungrier. Some days it might be stress eating, but I planned to eat my max calories in the suggested calorie range set in my app. If I feel the need to eat something unplanned, I am going to do something like chew gum, journal, etc. I know some of the food choices aren't what I have needed lately because after I eat it I feel regret about it. Like yesterday, I made a chocolate mug cake. It's small and not all that bad but it did put me over my calories and make my stomach hurt. And I didn't even feel like it filled whatever craving I had. I think I just really need more food and food that I enjoy that's healthy to stay content.
I'm set for a good day. I planned out my food and got some old favorites like sweet potatoes and oatmeal. My carbs are a bit higher and that's ok. I'm still meeting my protein goal and staying in my calorie range. I went back and forth about starting HIIT back today, but I decided to focus on just the food part for now and start back with HIIT/strength training Monday. That will give my foot a bit more time to rest. It feels a bit better today, but it's still a bit early to tell. It's still really achy at night.
Journaling has been a big help. I've been able to put my feelings down and write about ideas. It's funny how it helps to sort things and process the information I need to. I have been waking up an hour earlier and not hitting the snooze button. I feel more alert since avoiding the snooze button. My mornings were never really rushed, but having more time to wake up before everyone else has been very peaceful. Some times my husband is up at this time too, but we have our own routines when he wakes up early. I'd like to get better at prioritizing my journal during this time. I have been journaling in the morning, but not always before checking my phone. I'd like journaling to come first and other mindful things like stretching and meditation or even just making myself look nice and not like I rolled out of bed and threw on my workout clothes.
Anyway, there's my rambling update. I hope everyone is having a good week!