The Caterpillar keeps pressing on
Monday, September 10, 2018
This week was rough. Emotionally rough. I was doing well until Thursday. And then I had a chat that just threw me into instant emotional overload. Granted I don't think this was done on purpose, however the effect was still the same.
I overate. I missed a workout, and half@ssed another one. I ordered take out 3 straight days. I honestly feel some type of way towards myself. All the little monsters are poking their heads out to fill my brain with negative thoughts. The questions of "why am I doing this?", "what difference is it going to make?" and "why bother to put yourself through this again and again?" are on broken record soundtracks.
I almost didn't write in my blog today. I was planning on not logging in. I really didn't want to bring anyone down who read this. The freshly baked scones felt like a taunt when I got to work.
Then I remembered my journal. I opened it up and was reminded right there that I was doing it, I had lost 10 pounds so far, I was happier, I was doing this to be a healthier person for myself and my family. I wasn't putting my body through anything that was as harmful as doing nothing. And it is with that thought that I said ok, I've had a bit of a backslide, BUT, I have the ability to resume where I was when things were going well and carry on from that point.
So, that scone that taunted me, yeah I passed on that. I have my yogurt and fruit that was a planned breakfast. Obviously I logged in and made it to my blog. And when my weigh-in day comes around this Thursday, I will get on the scale, I will log it and I will move on.
The damage I have done to my body was not done in a week, so it can't be undone in a week, nor the progress I have made will be set back by a week. I am stronger than that.
So for anyone reading this blog, if you have ever had a setback, if you are struggling, remember that you had the mojo to start your journey and don't let anyone's actions or words keep you from carrying on with what you started. And if you do have a setback, be it a meal, a day or a week, YOU can do this. Belief in yourself is the stronger than anything negative that happens or gets thrown at you.
Have a great week, - xo