Being frustrated, yet optimistic at the same time
Monday, September 17, 2018
Ah, another Monday. Another week gone by. 7 whole days where I feel like I have failed myself, my own personal journey, at least 1 time each of those days.
I could blame it on my own personal illness flare-ups. And in all honesty, that is partially true. And I can also blame part of the week on being short staffed at work and not able to get in the exercise that might have helped to balance out some of the extra things that my emotional, anxious and stress out self consumed. And then that would just leave me with the remainder of the days where motivation flew up and out of reach for this caterpillar.
I have had a not so healthy, not very exercised fueled, elusive motivational couple of weeks. And with each "set back", each "bad day", each "poor choice" I find that I still believe in myself. I am not even how or why that is possible.
Perhaps, it's because I know I am worth the effort and not willing to give up on myself. Maybe it's the "Big 40" that will be coming my way in a few months, which I swore that I would be a healthier version of myself. Or the wedding in 2 years in which I want to have the energy to enjoy it and be as pain free as possible.
Whatever "IT factor" it is, it's there telling me not to call it quits. Maybe it is just the stubborn side of me that refuses to let something other than my own will have that much control over me. Whatever the case, I am choosing to be optimistic that I will do this.
Wishing everyone a safe and healthy week ahead, -xo