Doc Appointments and Vengeance
Sunday, September 30, 2018
I had to go to the doc Friday, and well I've just not been interested in doing so in a while, but I had an infection so had to go. I haven't been there in about a year, and in that year, according to the scale, I've regained 20 pounds, which is wow, a lot. But I can tell I'm still stronger than I was the last time I was this high. And this time, even before I went to the doc and found out how badly I had done weight wise, I found the greatest motivation in the world, at least for me.
Vengeance!!! Okay maybe that seems petty, but frankly, I don't care. I am tired of my husband (not officially ex yet), and his current bed buddy treating me the way they do. Oh, he "claims" it's just concerned about me because of the degenerative disc disease, how his mom had it and it just gets worse, and you can't do anything to get stronger. Well, dumb butt, I am stronger, I no longer need a cane to get around, I no longer walk hunched over. So take your "concern" and dump it because this girl is doing it and will continue to do it. I will get stronger, and stronger, I am supported by a small amount of really good friends (always looking for more), and as I get stronger, they can just stuff it. I grow stronger, I succeed, I feel more confidence in myself and my skills/abilities. And when I get to the end of my struggle, he will get a nasty little shock, and I don't care anymore.
Again this may be petty, but I'll take what I can and use it to make me better, for myself, and for my daughter.
Plus note, I was gifted a really nice stationary bike last week. I can only manage 2-3 minutes so far, but you gotta start somewhere, and I couldn't really expect myself to be able to do 5 minutes when I've not been on a bike since I was a preteen.