binged on cookies ...
Thursday, October 04, 2018
My hormones are worked up this week. Angry, sad, feeling worthless .... Angry because I'm letting them control my mind. ....
It's a recipe for disaster.
I had some errands to run yesterday and the last one was the grocery store for 2 items, hamburger buns and coleslaw mix. ..... I decided that I was going to get some cookies. Why? well life is better with cookies. Cookies made the world happy. Cookies solve all your problems. well that's what they tell you.
I went to the bakery first, but they all had milk in them. (i'm doing an experiment to see if I'm allergic to dairy.) They had some "diet" ones over close to the bakery so I looked at them. They had milk in them. except for the lemon tart dessert thins. I like lemon cookies. Hell I like all cookies. I bought them. Opened them up in the parking lot. Had four by the time I drove .7 of a mile to my house. ...... I ate the whole bag yesterday. All of them.
I guess it's actually good thing that I bought these. It's a 5 ounces bag with just 5 servings. ... 120 calories per serving, .... so 600 calories for the whole bag. That's not a whole lot when you eat a whole package of something. But they were empty calories. seriously empty.
Now do I feel guilty about eating the whole package? Nope. Am I angry with myself about it? Nope. Will I do something like that again? Probably.
The rest of my meals for the day were all good, nutritious meals. All in my calorie range. All nutrient dense food. And I walked for an hour on my treadmill.
Did eating this whole package of cookies make me gain weight? Nope. Did it blow my diet plan? Nope. Did it make me think I might as well give up? Nope.
It was 600 empty calories that I choose to devour.
The journey goes on.