not the weight I want to be
Monday, October 08, 2018
I'm not losing as much as I want, but my body and brain are dealing with a bunch of bad juju crap. I have lost and that is what I need to focus on. I'm no longer 180 pounds. I'm making better choices. I no longer have bags of chocolate in my refrigerator. I haven't had a Starbucks Latte for lunch for weeks now. Haven't had a soda in over a month. I'm walking or exercising almost every day. I can walk at 2.5 to 3 mph for 45 minutes consistently.
I am improving.
I need to focus on the little things
I need to stop worrying about the scale moving faster.
I need to focus on the small little changes that says I'm getting healthier.
My fasting blood sugar has been running 105 to 108. The other day it 97. It was under 100 were it is supposed to be. .... with the amount diabetes that is in my family, it's something that I need to get control of. NOW!
So that's an improvement. not one that is shown in my clothes or on a scale, but on a "how healthy are you" test. This is an important improvement.
I don't need to give up.
I don't need to stop.
I need to just keep making my turtle steps.
And one day I will be the weight I want to be.