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Saturday, October 13, 2018


Sometimes the world appears

To be spinning out of control,

Sometimes there seems to be no end

To the distressing news.

Sometimes it feels like troubles

Are being pilled on top of troubles.

Sometimes it can look as if there

Could never be a way forward.

And yet that way forward is always

As close as your next thought.

For no matter how difficult and

Discouraging life may become,

With each dawning moment,

A new world of the positive possibilities

Opens up to you.

From the darkest depths of despair,

Hope does indeed grow and take flight.

Out of difficult situations.

new strategies emerge for creating

real value and spreading life’s goodness.

Remember that the future

does not have to be an extention

of the past

For you can act right now to create

That future out of the abundance

Of positive possibilities.

Life always has it’s challenges.

And those challenges are

What enable you to bring

Real value to life.

Whatever the circumstance,

Step boldly forward and

Choose to move the world

Positively ahead.

Author unknown

This is my wish for you:
Comfort on difficult days,
Smiles when sadness intrudes,
Rainbows to follow the clouds,
Laughter to kiss your lips,
Sunsets to warm your heart,
Hugs when spirits sag,
Beauty for your eyes to see,
Friendships to brighten your being,
Faith so that you can believe,
Confidence for when you doubt,
Courage to know yourself,
Patience to accept the truth,
Love to complete your life.
- Anonymous

have not blogged in a very long time.........although have been on Sparkpeople most days have had to cut back on most things i used to do as life somewhat dropped by and caught me some what off guard...........
The memory problems started approximately 20 years ago with my DH.
A marked decrease in cognitive ability beginning about 10 years ago and a continued decline since that time until the last few years........in all this time no diagnosis was ever established by our dr .When i first brought it up to our dr he did all the test and we saw all the drs etc.........all came out ok..the whole matter was laughed off by my DH and the dr too........i continued to advocate to my dr which he finally concluded the fall of 2017 tested him with me there and DH failed the test and he was reporting it so his license would be reveoked......
since that time we have moved to be closer to our DD and her family and the memory and anger has escalated.He was sneeking out after i went to bed and driving the car without a license he did this several times etc.......he have bought a tracker for his shoes that is how we knew.....
Finally had to involving a judge and the police to get him the help he needed as i was in fear for myself as well and my DH.He remained in hospital for over a month.
While there he was the model patient showing no anger or other issues etc.....
he is now home with a small amount of support and a 4 month wait for day programs........
we are now waiting for the next crisis as he is physically and reasonably able to manage for himself.........as an example he hasn't showered for at least i month....he is capable of doing it but no incentive to do it himself.....am told to not to trigger him so i say nothing..........
i have cried so much in the last year i feel i am cried out burnt out with little left to give,,,,,,
am doing the best i can from day to day as best i can......
this journey has many twists and turns............
we now have a diagnosis of Alzeimers with behaviors involving the frontal lobe.......

thanks so much for dropping by as always appreciate all you support......
blessings and hugs...........lita

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  • KARENE10
    886 days ago
    Lita, I am so sorry that you are having to deal with this. It is so hard to see your loved one like this. My mother had Alzheimer's. We had to hospitalize her because she wouldn't eat or take her meds and tried to hurt us. They got her medicine adjusted and she came home. With the help of hospis we kept her home until she passed away in 2014. Feel free to message me anytime. You are in my prayers
    912 days ago
    I am so sorry you are going through such a difficult time with your DH!!! We are going through the same thing with my 93 year old dad!!! It's all so very sad, but we have to do the best we can!!! God bless you!!!
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    912 days ago
  • EDWARDS1411
    Dear, dear Lita, so very sorry to hear what you've been dealing with - it's such a heartbreaking disease! In the early days of the disease, when my MIL went for the tests she would always practice memorizing answers to the questions that became familiar to her so was able to fool the doctors for some time. Putting a tracker on your DH's shoes is a great idea - never thought of that. We knew how serious our situation was when the police brought her home in the middle of the night and contacted us. You are in my thoughts and I wish for you the strength to get through these difficult times.
    913 days ago
  • DEE107
    hugs and sending prayers my friend
    913 days ago
  • _CYNDY55_
    Sending emoticon and emoticon for You emoticon Prayers for your DH emoticon

    913 days ago
    I am so sorry to hear this news, As far as I am concerned Alzheimer's is one of the worst diseases you can have! You, your family and your DH will be in my thoughts and prayers.
    Sending lots of hugs and love your way, xoxo
    913 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers!
    913 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/14/2018 7:22:41 PM
    emoticon I am so sorry. This is a dreadful disease. My SIL Mom has it and I see the toll it takes on her and my brother. Thank you for sharing and you are not alone.
    913 days ago
    My heart goes out to you. This is so difficult. Remember to take care of yourself too! emoticon
    913 days ago
    So sorry Lita, understandable why you have not been on much. So sorry that the Doctor and your husband did not listen. I understand what you are going through, went through many of these things but with my Mother. I am glad you have moved closer to family for support. Hope you get more help very soon. Many emoticon and emoticon for you my friend.
    914 days ago
    Sorry to hear you are going through this. I am a caregiver to my husband who has dementia.. It is not an easy road to walk for either of you..I pray for strength for you in the coming days..there are days when i think I cannot go on..but what choice do we have
    914 days ago
  • PHOENIX1949
    Alzheimer's is all over our family tree and the two closest people I watched descend into the spiral were my father and his mother. Praying you have the strength to cope without losing yourself in the process.
    914 days ago
    Lita, I am so sorry to hear you are going through all this.
    I wondered why you hadn't been here on SP much, when you were so active. This blog explains why.

    I know it must be taking it's toll on you, but please take care of yourself.
    We are all here for you.


    914 days ago
    914 days ago
    I had to look after my mother with this. It is horrible watch the person you love fade away.

    There is nothing anyone can say to help but don't do it alone. I had a neighbor who helped me and for that I was able to get a break.


    914 days ago
    Alzheimers is one the cruelest illnesses, it robs you of your loved one, I'm glad that now you know you can get him some help.
    Through all this you need to take care of you....not only for your sake but so you can take care of him too.
    You have my love and prayers. If you EVER feel the need to rant (and you will) sparkmail me and lean on me emoticon emoticon
    914 days ago
    Lita, I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling so helpless.
    Please look after yourself and I am hoping that he can accept
    to get the help he needs.

    I am a good listener and will be here to to listen. Just know we are here for you.

    Praying that you will be OK and that DH gets the help he needs.
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    914 days ago
    Thank you for sharing this. You are not alone in this. We're here for you. emoticon
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  • ZRIE014
    thank you.
    914 days ago
  • no profile photo HOTPINKCAMARO49
    Awesome! Way to go!
    914 days ago
    I'm so sorry to hear that. I know how difficult that can be. I'm glad you finally got the diagnosis that you've known about for several years now. I hope he can get in a day program so you can have a bit of a break from the stress, even for a few hours.

    914 days ago
    Oh, Lita. Please know you have my support. My dad had Alzheimers, I'm glad you have a diagnosis now and can hopefully get him help.
    But right now its you i'm worried about. You are so kind and caring but please do what you can to take care of YOU. If you need an ear or a shoulder i'm here.
    Big hugs..sending all positive thoughts and prayers your way.
    914 days ago
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