For over a year, my weight has bounced between 190-210 lb. Usually settling between 202-206. Very upsetting because I am only 5'2".
I keep reminding myself I am not the 234 lb I used to be. I am horrified to remember the chipmunk face that used to stare back at me in the mirror.
A lifelong weight issue and yes, partially my fault for not exercising much or harder. Like when I lost 50 lb. seven short years ago. (Non supportive hubby now.)
Back in the 1990's I spoke with my doc about my weight. He was one of those if you were one ounce overweight it was catastrophic. Given the health history on both sides, I can see where he was coming from. However, with bloodwork, I found out I have dyslipidemia which translates to a hereditary condition where I carry too much fat in my blood. My LDL triglycerides are naturally higher than my HDL. Not an excuse, I know. I do take cholesterol med for it.
For two days now, I have gone back to my weight loss hypnosis recording on my phone. Aside from relaxing me from my stress, it helps me. I listened to it twice a day before when I lost the 50 lb. I can't now because of timing and my hubby who does not believe in hypnosis. (Hypnosis is for weak minded people, according to him.) Guess I am weak minded because I like it!
Putting a new bed together last night, I noticed the gravity pull on my upper arms. Wow! Have I let them go. They used to be strong arms that used to lift furniture with no problems and other things. Just because I'm 54 now, doesn't mean I am going to be a weakling! I've seen weight lifting women older than me!
Hubby wants to go to Jamaica next year for vacation. I would rather go elsewhere, but whatever. I went to Cuba for my honeymoon, and Dominican Republic in September at this weight. Aiming for next year. Never give up, right?
I keep reading I need to schedule my exercise like an appointment. I wish I could. I plan my days off and they go to hell in a handbasket because there is always something else to do on top of what I wanted. I end up leaving everything for the next day.
But I will muddle through this. I have to. It's called l-i-f-e.
Three more pounds to 199. ONEderland AGAIN. I refuse to see 200 again after I reach that 199 again. I have my sights on 130 lb. at 5 lb. increments!
Have a blessed day!