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Some Real Talk

Monday, November 05, 2018

I am addicted to food. I was doing well navigating through my emotional eating triggers and then one day I caved and succumbed to my old habits. That one time was all it took for me to slip back to my old ways. I let work stress and life stress consume me and I chose to eat my feelings rather than work through my emotions in a healthy way. Not only was I making horrible food choices (I stopped meal prepping and chose convenience foods and had several binge eating breakdowns), I began to skip gym days and let my self-worth take a nose dive. I went from feeling unstoppable and in control to feeling broken and worthless. I've said before that for me losing weight and being healthy is 90% what I eat and 10% what I do...I still believe that. But I also know that none of that matters unless my mind and heart are on board. I stopped caring about myself and the scale is proof of that. I have gained 25 pounds in a just a few months. Seeing those numbers on the scale was like a punch to the gut. At first I thought that this weight gain erased all of my progress from this summer, but I'm not going to look at it that way. It might have erased the pounds I lost, but even though this is a major setback it is still progress. Part of my progress is learning how to react and rebound in healthy ways. So I have given myself a pep talk, I have healthy food to cook for the week, I am committed to going to the gym every morning, and I am ready to put myself first! I'm still here, I'm still pushing, I'm still unstoppable!

Peace & Love,
Jamie

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  • AQUAGIRL08
    Wow! I just read the article about your journey. You are inspirational!
    54 days ago
  • ALLIE4993
    Thank you for sharing your journey! That includes the moment that are challenging. I hope to get to this point one day. I'm working on changing my thinking patterns which have typically been rather negative. Thanks for showing a different perspective and how to look at things. :)
    664 days ago
  • ALOFA0509
    emoticon You got this girl.. Get back into a routine and build up from there.. I had to do a hard Reset a few weeks ago.. and I'm feeling back to normal again, it may seem slow- but its progress.. Cheering 4U!
    670 days ago
  • REMBRY
    Sending you lots of love ..
    What if we all started loving ourselves in the moment every moment .. there is so much pressure put on ourselves .. by us ..

    try cut the stress .. I know first hand the stresses of workplace and family because mine are combined .. it looks like the perfect business .. but believe you me it is not ...

    be inspired by the fire within .. to feel good .. move better .. and enjoy life more .. listen to your dear body as it fuels your every system ..

    you are fearlessly and wonderfully made .. loved by the Universe and guided by the angels ..
    you have the DNA of the almighty .. a warrior and a victor ..
    own those thoughts .. feed your soul with that knowledge .. everything else falls into place .. xoxox

    682 days ago
  • ICECUB
    WE ALL SLIP UP. AT LEASE YOU ARE BACK ON TRACK. YOU CAN DO THIS.
    682 days ago
  • 75HEALTHYME

    Never too late to make healthier choices.
    Where there is life, there is hope.

    683 days ago
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    683 days ago
  • KALISWALKER
    You found your reset point and know from experience what causes you to get off track. Now you are ready for success. You can do it!
    683 days ago
  • JLPEASE
    Thanks for your honesty and for sharing your situation. I am experiencing this too, and it's important to know that everything is not all happy happy joy joy all of the time and that this is an ongoing struggle for most of us. It's not easy!!
    Just know that you are not alone and we're all rooting for you.
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    683 days ago
  • no profile photo CD22750510
    Love your authenticity and honesty. THAT will get you where you're going. Peace and love.
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    683 days ago
  • TAYGRL
    Gurl, you are amazing! And yes, I do follow you. *hugs*
    683 days ago
  • RECOVERYMAMA
    Peace and blessings, my friend. You can do it again. We all seem to have setbacks, I'm climbing out of one myself. So long as we never quit, we will get there!! I believe in you!
    683 days ago
  • SPARKLE-IT
    I'm trying to pick myself up and move forward again. Strange how easy it is to fall, but we must not stay down forever. It's not easy getting healthy, but we know we should and we can. So here's to all of us who struggle along the way may we keep our focus moving forward and get stronger each day.
    683 days ago
  • GINA515
    Peace and Love. You're back on track!
    683 days ago
  • KPHEALTHY4LIFE
    You can do it. Learn from the experience then forgive yourself and move forward
    683 days ago
  • GEORGE815
    Some great plans there to get out of rut. Have a great week.
    683 days ago
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