Some Real Talk
Monday, November 05, 2018
I am addicted to food. I was doing well navigating through my emotional eating triggers and then one day I caved and succumbed to my old habits. That one time was all it took for me to slip back to my old ways. I let work stress and life stress consume me and I chose to eat my feelings rather than work through my emotions in a healthy way. Not only was I making horrible food choices (I stopped meal prepping and chose convenience foods and had several binge eating breakdowns), I began to skip gym days and let my self-worth take a nose dive. I went from feeling unstoppable and in control to feeling broken and worthless. I've said before that for me losing weight and being healthy is 90% what I eat and 10% what I do...I still believe that. But I also know that none of that matters unless my mind and heart are on board. I stopped caring about myself and the scale is proof of that. I have gained 25 pounds in a just a few months. Seeing those numbers on the scale was like a punch to the gut. At first I thought that this weight gain erased all of my progress from this summer, but I'm not going to look at it that way. It might have erased the pounds I lost, but even though this is a major setback it is still progress. Part of my progress is learning how to react and rebound in healthy ways. So I have given myself a pep talk, I have healthy food to cook for the week, I am committed to going to the gym every morning, and I am ready to put myself first! I'm still here, I'm still pushing, I'm still unstoppable!
Peace & Love,
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