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Days 1 & 2 In The Books!

Sunday, December 02, 2018


I was never a fan of counting the days, I've been on this on going weight loss journey since 2012 (even though right now it seems like a weight gain journey! LOL). But I am trying to make this feel new again. After all these years of losing so much weight, maintaining then gaining a large portion of it back, feeling like things are shiny and new are really helping.

It was really humble to go for a walk for the first time in a really long time. Other than the occasional Disneyland trip, I haven't been doing hardly any walking. When I started losing weight before I started walking when I got around 250, and as I sit here at 243 the pains and uncomfortable part of walking is all too familiar. My lower back and knees hurt as I walk, slowly, while huffing and puffing. But I am trying to remind myself that while it is hard at first, it only gets easier as time goes on.

When I lost 90 pounds the first time I ate mostly easy mac, chicken nuggets, and hot pockets. Calories in calories out totally works. Before that I mostly ate fast food, so that was a huge step in the right direction for me even though it still wasn't healthy. This time around I am eating more whole foods, still have my frozen things I like, but not making that every single meal. Been eating spinach, lettuce (don't worry just iceberg LOL) and enjoying what veggies have to offer. As you all know 1200-1500 calories of veggies is a lot more than 1200 calories of easy mac, much more filling and satisfying.

Anyways I am trying not to focus on the long road ahead of me, and just focusing on getting back out of the 240's. I cringe as I write that because I vowed never to go back over 200, let alone let it get this bad. But I think part of me has been in denial about this weight gain. I mean, I knew that it was there, I can feel it daily, I've seen it on the scale, but instead of admitting defeat I am finally ready to turn this around.

Thanks for all the encouragement on the last blog. So happy to see so many kind and familiar faces and a few new ones! Definitely makes me wonder why I ever stopped Sparking in the first place. emoticon
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  • SAPHRAEL
    I just want to pop in and affirm you’re not alone. I’ve regained some weight and am going through the same thought process. How do I revitalize that motivation and turn this puppy around? Small incremental goals work. Getting tactical and planning the day’s intentional movement and sensible nutrition works. Executing on that plan works. Here’s to staying focused and determined in 2019.

    I read your recent blog about RA. Sorry to hear you have that added challenge. My husband has severe neuropathy in all his extremities. I don’t know how he manages to even get out of bed. It takes some mental fortitude, for sure.

    Merry Christmas 🎄
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    Love your self honesty. Settling in is the mindset I'm working on too -- you've got this!
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  • WENDYANNE61
    Thinking of you and your Shootingstar again! 😍
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  • JCMSMILE
    I'm still with you... one step at a time ((my) creaky knees and all)!!
    726 days ago
  • LINDAK25
    Glad you’re getting back into the swing of things. Two days down! Woo hoo!
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  • TRINASFITLIFE
    I'm just SO glad you're back!! I've gained weight too! It happens. Just glad you're back! I was MrsP90X and Fountofblessing awhile back and changed Sp names. While we where not on SSS in BLC, we talked about it, if you remember me. Looking forward to your blogs!
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  • BEATLETOT
    LOL that meme about eating healthy and having a salad with romaine is HILARIOUS.

    I'm so glad to see a blog from you. Stay here with us!!!
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  • MOMMA48
    emoticon and wonderful way of thinking! Take it one day at a time and, with your great, upbeat positive attitude, you'll reach your goal with emoticon all the way!!
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  • WHYTEBROWN
    emoticon on successful days 1 & 2! emoticon emoticon
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  • CANDOK1260
    emoticon Just take it 1 day at time,
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  • SUSIEMT
    Stephanie I am just so happy that you are back! There are a lot of reasons why we do the things we do even if they are not the healthiest choices from food to lack of exercise etc. This is your new reality. Don't look back except at the good choices you made and take the good along on your new journey. As you already know do it once step at a time and only pick what you know you can do I guess what I am saying is it sustainable for you.
    Are you still vegetarian? I think I gleaned that from the vegetable comment in your blog. Keep up the good job Stephanie! emoticon
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  • DEBVNE
    Two days down, yes please. Love that you’re thinking about nutrition, fitness...your overall wellness. It all matters because WE matter. None of it is easy, yet it’s all worth it. Slowly but surely, it does become easier or at least more seem less. I cannot tell you how many flights of stairs I huffed and puffed up, how many workouts I really questioned my sanity. Little by little it changes. Strong is hot, muscle is a fat furnace...ask me how I know?! Hahaha. Cheering you on, I’m here on Spark cuz I rely on my chicas and I learn something new just about every day. Glad you’re here too, we are better together. Get after this one, it’s pretty dang powerful to change the trajectory of your life...

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  • DESERTDREAMERS
    So glad you’re back, Steph!
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  • SERENASEA
    I am so glad to see you back posting here. I've followed your blogs and your journey for a number of years. Yes, the weight has crept back over your panic point, but despite that, it has been so motivating to see your trips to Disneyland and the zoos (a lot of walking!), and your solo trips all over the country to Luke Bryan concerts and your joy as you experience these adventures.

    I think most of us here know the feeling of nudging over that number on the scale that we swore we'd never see again. But we're not choosing to give up. And at this time of the year, so many people say "what the heck" and defer any thought of weight management until January. So welcome back, and give yourself credit for committing in December!
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  • NASFKAB
    Just keep at it
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  • SHOAPIE
    It seems I’ve been on this journey forever but have realized it’s a never ending process. Sometimes you win, sometimes you flounder but you just keep going. Anyone who’s been there will never look down on you as most of us have been there, done that. We’ll feel for you and sympathize with you and will always root for you! emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • 1CRAZYDOG
    You're doing it a day-@-a-time and that's what will get you results. You have the right attitude. And yeah, skip the romaine!
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  • HMBROWN1
    We are glad to see your smiling face back too! Are you still all vegetarian? Have a great day!
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  • PENOWOK
    Thanks for the note...Be sure to get some good protein in there, too. Figuring out what works this time may take a little time, but you are worth it!! You can be proud of yourself for coming back! We are all in this together!!
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  • HOLLYM48
    The fact that you are still here in a testament to how strong you are.The weight lost and the weight gained is really a hard journey, but we are all in this together. Keep on doing your best. It is all we can do each day.
    Good luck, we are all here cheering you on!
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  • BESSHAILE
    You could be writing my story. This is good because you realize you're not just some looser failure. It may be not so great because you might come to the conclusion that you'll be handling these swings the rest of your life.

    And you might. I certainly have. It's just that after a while the swings just became smaller and smaller. And maybe, the self-disgust does too. Instead, I think, you'll find that you'll become proud of yourself for Always acting when you get to That Point. And be proud when you add up the years you've done well and compared them to the years you've not done so well. And if you start that comparison in 2012 - from the point where you made that first good choice - why - you'll see that, most of the time you've been a rip roaring success.

    So. Big girl panties on. March forward. Slowly. In true Chris Downie style - a baby step at a time.

    Thanks for the goodie, too, sweetie.
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  • SIMPLY_JAE
    We are all a work in progress.. two steps forward, and step back.. just keep going..you can do it!
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  • EISSA7
    So very proud of you for finally reaching the cringe part and being ready to turn it around! Don’t focus on the length of the journey...just focus on what you intend to do today! emoticon
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