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Week 1 Recap Looking Forward To Week 2...

Friday, December 07, 2018

I quickly realized I definitely don't have enough to say to justify doing a daily a blog LOL! I think I will try to do 2 check ins a week though, one at the end of the week and then somewhere in the middle. The reason being is I know me well enough to know I can let an entire awful week slip by me before I even know which end is up LOL!

Days 1 & 2 were strong like I mentioned. Day 3 was outstanding as well, but then I just reverted right back to my old binging ways. Days 4 & 5 were completely binge city, day 6 wasn't as bad but definitely not pretty! Day 7 ended up with me back on track.

As I look forward to week 2 (my weeks are kind of strange because of the day I started on...so my weeks are going to run Friday-Thursday... I guess it spices things up LOL) and even onto the rest of the month there are going to be some things going on that will probably not be the best food days.

December 7th (today) I am going to a wedding. The good news is despite my friend doing her best, there really aren't many vegetarian options. It's mostly going to be bread and some veggies from the sound of it but that is more than fine with me. More reasons not to run amok. It is also going to be a short wedding, not a party into the night kind of wedding, so that is definitely not that big of an issue.

December 10th I am going with my old trainee (who sadly didn't make it off training but we are still buddies) to happy hour at the Cheesecake Factory. I already know what I am having, and I will not lie to you, it is going to be a little bit over maintenance but my goal is to take some home and have that be all that I have that day. We will see if I survive it.

December 11th is Disneyland with my brother, but that shouldn't be too crazy. Assuming I don't binge those days usually wash out as even with the added walking.

December 15th I am taking my BFF to Knott's Berry Farm because I can get in for free and bring 1 friend free for Law & Fire Appreciation days (dispatchers count too, yay me!). Again assuming I don't binge I can probably manage a maintenance day.

My family and I aren't big on holidays (please don't faint LOL), and I am working Christmas overtime, but I choose not to participate in the pot lucks at work. There's honestly 3 reasons, and I'm not afraid to admit them to all of you. The first reason is I work with a bunch of turds, and I can not lie to you, it really annoys me to pretend like we are a big happy family a couple times a year when I work with some really nasty people. That turns me off to no end. The last 2 pot lucks I participatee in I ended up with meat in my mouth (that's what she said LOL), and I was not happy about it. The 2nd one really set me off cuz the person who brought it (her girlfriend made it) said specifically there was no meat and I ended up eating a small piece of ham in macaroni salad of all the things (typically not a meaty dish), and I am still traumatized. I initially passed by it and she insisted I try it, that's the only reason I asked if there was meat in it cuz I try to be quiet about those things. She said there wasn't and sadly she was wrong. And the 3rd reason which I have not and will not explain to my coworkers is pot lucks are a trigger for me. I have a huge issue with not only binge eating but my all or nothing attitude. Since I find it nearly impossible to track pot luck food accurately it turns it into a free for all in my mind and that is dangerous for me.

When I initially lost 90 pounds I worked at my current job, I did not participate in pot luck and I ate the food I brought on a daily basis. I ignored all the treats (I had an occasional donut and just tracked it), the "chow runs" (where they order dinner out) and I just did what I needed to do. I really need to get back in the mindset of doing what I need to do.

With that said this clearly doesn't mean I'm going to stop living. As you saw from my recap of some adventurous food days that are coming up I will absolutely indulge and participate in life and the yummy food that comes with it. But I'd rather have an amazing trip to Cheesecake Factory with a friend be the reason I'm a little over on my calories than having a binge on crappy pot luck food.

Going to do my best to stay on track this week even if on track means going slightly over calories a day or two. Anything at this point is better than binging.
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  • DESERTDREAMERS
    Before I retired, I’d make sure I brought something I could eat to the potlucks. Then, I’d track as closely as I could get it to how I presumed a dish was made. I’d track for both before & after midnight (12 hour shifts from 7:30 pm to 8am). Then, unfortunately, around 3am, I usually needed to track the desserts emoticon
    716 days ago
  • DEBVNE
    Nothing changes when nothing changes...so feel proud you’re finding your groove and making changes you can live with. Seriously, do not begin something you can’t maintain forever! Ughhhhhh, right?! This doesn’t mean you have to always do it, reality dictates we’ll always be doing something for the strongest, leanest, healthiest versions of us. You gooooOooOoo sweet girl, new day...new opportunity. Nothing like a determined chica to get stuff done...ask me how I know. Hahaho!
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  • WENDYANNE61
    Good plan and lots of lovely outings by the sounds of things! 😍
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  • BEATLETOT
    I hope you do blog as frequently as you can. This blog is really inspiring to me. I know what you mean about potlucks and not being able to track! Sometimes, I legitimately think, "Well, if I don't know, I can't track it, so it doesn't count!" BUT MY BODY COUNTS IT, even if I don't. And I KNOW that, too. Ugh. Anyway, I'm just so darn happy to be reading blogs from you again. I have missed you, like, whoa!
    719 days ago
  • AQUAGIRL08
    Since I have dietary constraints, potluck meals don't bother me. I'm limited on dairy and can't eat wheat or gluten so most fattening foods are off the table for me. It makes the choices for me. I know this may seem weird, but The Cheesecake Factory has delicious salads! I love going there just to eat their greens. Of course you need to be careful of all the add on ingredients but still it is so good! I think you are doing a wonderful job so far. The fact that you are so self aware of how you are eating is a huge plus! Good job!
    719 days ago
  • LIBELULITA
    Just been reading back through your last few blogs. How wonderful to see that you're now actually eating veggies...a long way from the Spark friend I made back in 2011! Good for you emoticon . We have both chosen a tricky time to try and regain our focus, but you seem determined, and I literally have no choice if I don't want a stroke, so on we go….WE CAN DO THIS!!!! emoticon
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  • LINDAK25
    It’s so nice to find someone who feels the same way about potluck dinners as I do. It’s simply not a good place for me to be. If you enjoy the people at the dinner it would be easier because you could just drink water and visit with your friends. It would still be be hard to avoid the food.

    I’ve decided that it’s going to be difficult to be totally on track everyday during this month. I see you’re having the same issue. Maybe we can manage to do well four to six days a week?
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  • JCMSMILE
    Have fun on your adventures! !
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  • WALNUTT1961
    I can't do pot lucks either or buffets! I can't be trusted! You have some fun activities coming up and you already have a plan. Way to go! I need to do more of that.
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  • KENDRACARROLL
    Office food days, no matter what the occasion, drive me nuts. Don't blame you for not participating.
    With amusement park food being outrageously expensive, I would think you'll be okay food wise.
    Enjoy your special days!
    721 days ago
  • BARBARAJ73
    What a great week ahead... you should be able to rack up a lot of steps to offset a few (healthy/hiealthier) treats on your outings. I completely agree re potlucks (and buffets) - I avoid if possible. Have fun and work your plan! emoticon
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  • SUSIEMT
    Stephanie I feel the same way about pot lucks!! It's a slippery slope for me! I also suffer from the all or nothing attitude or I should say I did. For whatever reason when I joined sparkpeople I overcame that. I think it was learning that I could get back on track with my next bite. Of course it might have been a few bites down the trail! Good luck sweetie I know you can do this!
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  • THOMS1
    Sounds like you're on the right track but, be careful, with everything you have planned to do there is a lot of temptation out there. But, I know that you can do this. Have a great time on all of your adventures. emoticon emoticon
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  • NASFKAB
    It might be a good idea to take what you can eat & not eat what others bring
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  • PENOWOK
    Those pot-lucks can be brutal;l to those of us trying to stay healthy! Smart thinking to bring your own and not worry about what's in the bowl!! Too hard to track-yes! Sounds as though you'll be plenty busy with other fun activities!! Stay strong!
    721 days ago
  • MARYBETH4884
    One day slightly above is no big deal. Slightly under the day before and after and it equals out. You've thought this through so go for it. emoticon
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  • 1CRAZYDOG
    You are doing the best you can! Doesn't sound like I'd be too eager to participate in the pot luck, either!
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  • BESSHAILE
    I think you're wise to spend your splurge days on things that make you happy. Such a wise woman. Enjoy those trips with pals.
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  • HMBROWN1
    I think it is great that you work on Christmas! I used to volunteer to work holidays once my daughter was grown and my coworkers had youngsters. I work in a different field now so we are closed but I would do it again! Kudos to you! I also work with some whackos. Take your own lunch and enjoy a walk outside instead of around the buffet!
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    Go get em! 💪👍😊
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  • EISSA7
    Sounds like your priorities are in order...fun with friends, lots of activity walking, choosing where and when to enjoy your treats...and avoiding random food that you didn’t want in the first place! Congrats on completing the week on a positive note and working toward “just doing what you know you need to do.”
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  • RODILLA68
    Thanks
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