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Today is the day...

Friday, January 25, 2019

Today is the day that everything changes. I will NEVER EVER allow myself to get back to the place I'm in today again. Never again. In 2010 I started my weight loss journey at 350lbs. In 2013 I got to an all time low of 220lbs. Today.. 6 years later I weighed in at 339.7 lbs, and I am devastated to say the least. I am embarrassed. I am disappointed, and I'm sorry I let myself down. I can list a million reasons that this happened: the suicide of my stepfather, divorce from my first husband, my mom's near death illness that landed her in the ICU for 3 months and the 3 more months in the hospital on a regular floor recovering, new marriage, 3 moves into new homes, work stress, my terrible hormones, depression. The list goes on and on. But at the end of the day, it boils down to me. Lack of willpower. Lack of discipline Skipping workouts, treating my body like a garbage disposal. It's on me. 1000%. I have had a rough few years but so have tons of other people. I did this to myself.. annnnd now I am going to fix it for myself. Never again will I wake up and look in the mirror and feel the heartbreak I felt this morning when I weighed in. Just watch. ❤
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  • no profile photo HOTPINKCAMARO49
    Awesome! Way to go!
    872 days ago
  • no profile photo CD23074764
    emoticon First and foremost, get some self care in your life. Find something you love doing and do it. And it needs to be outside of food. I am a food addict so I think I understand how we manage to ignore what's in front and side of us. We turn a blind eye to how we work so hard to destroy our own selves. We'd never want that for someone else, we have to find that same care for ourselves. Welcome to a new priority in your life, yourself.
    872 days ago
    That is great! Now, quit beating yourself up for what happened in the past. This is a judgment-free zone! You came to the right place. SP has the tools you need and we are here to cheer you on every day! You are worth it. You got this!
    872 days ago
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