Day 63 (relapse)
Thursday, March 07, 2019
INT. CLUB - NIGHT. A DJ spins heavy bass techno rap beats in a dark neon lit club setting. Our protagonist follows the carpeted floors all the way to end until they meet the smooth, slick dance floor. The club is jumping, bass is thumping, her blood is pumping. She makes her way to the middle of the floor and the music stops, a spotlight hits her, she feels the tension and heat as the DJ calls her out.
Well look whose here! I thought you were done living this life, I thought we weren't good enough for you anymore.
The heat of the spotlight would be melting her makeup if she'd bothered to wear any. She stands in her most comfiest pajamas and pig slippers, greasy hair in a top knot.
Yeah well, I'm back, DJ Frickle Frackle. And we can stand here and catch up like two old ladies or we can do what everyone came here for....
DJ FF and Sarah stand in a tense pause making unflinching eye contact
We can PAAARTAAAY!!
The beat starts again, as the whole club woo's and hoo's her return. Sodas are being poured like it's the last night of the year, chips, chocolate covered almonds and cashews are being passed around openly. Sarah climbs onto the DJ's stage and grabs the Mic
I came here to get wasted and if I gotta start it so be it (she points towards the kitchen) fry cook! Lets get a round of quesaritos on me!
The club erupts as Sarah huffs and puffs her way back down the stairs. She stops, a smile still reminiscent on her face as she begins to feel the guilt set in. An overweight middle aged man stands next to her and places his arm around her shoulder
Welcome back to Club Relapse.
Yes, I let my cheat day turn into a 4 day weekend. I'm 311. Barf. Almost back to where I started! I meet with CC in 2 hours and I'm not looking forward to the weigh in. There is still a positive part of this:
I never missed yoga or high knees.
At least I'm establishing exercise habits.
But thats the only positive.
I may have more of an addiction than I realize. Something to talk to CC about.
How do you even handle a food addiction? Do you pick just one food you don't like and eat that? Seriously, how do you treat it?
I'll be doing my research tonight I'm sure.
Anyway, I hope you're doing better than me!