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What am I so afraid of?

Friday, July 05, 2019

I have been asking myself that for such a long time...lately time and time again - the word FAILURE - has been popping up in my mind when i think of the answer.

FAILURE - what a strong powerful word! I honestly feel that is what i am so afraid of.

Failing again - after failing so many times when it comes to my weight loss patterns - Doing all this work, putting in the very long hours of commitment, all the exercise - hearing all the compliments, fitting into all the clothes i have in my closet & loving shopping for new ones, feeling FABULOUS!!

ONLY to Fail and gain it all back.... That is what I am afraid of, that is what is holding me back from doing it all again - The lack of the Belief that this time will be different - this time - it will be life style change and not just a "quick fix" a "diet"

This scares me - that i am afraid of repeating the past as I have over and over again.

The lack of belief that this is it!! This is my time and my life style change FOR LIFE - not just a moment in time.

I guess the hard part is figuring out WHAT I AM AFRAID OF - now that i know - the HARDEST part will be working through this sense of failure & begin to believe in myself

That - I can do it - and all the past times were just lessons for the future

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  • KAYDE53
    You can do this! Most of us have been through this too, so you are not alone. emoticon emoticon
    755 days ago
  • ERIN1128
    So true...I was just thinking the other day about how much of this fight is mental!
    756 days ago
    You absolutely CAN do this. Iā€™m cheering for you all the way.
    756 days ago
    The only true failure is not trying. This time can't be THE time if you don't begin. So push that fear aside and crush your goals! emoticon
    756 days ago
    emoticon I could have written this blog

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    756 days ago
  • no profile photo CD24115281
    Great blog
    756 days ago
    emoticon You can do it.
    756 days ago
  • YMWONG22
    756 days ago
    On the up side - you know YOU can do it it! That is awesome all by it self! I have been a regular with spark for 16 months. Sign in, show up, read the articles, join groups, make friends, learn coping mechanisms. Create your lifestyle āœ…šŸ‘šŸƒšŸ¼ā€ā™€ļø
    756 days ago
    There is nothing about this you can't do.
    I have been in the same boat.
    True lifestyle change is not temporary.
    This time, I have integrated exercise into my life as a daily thing, even if it is just 10 minutes.
    I remind myself the food isn't bad, my thoughts about it can be. Moderation, moderation, moderation. If I am unsure I can do that sometimes I can forego it altogether.
    I started using my lunch hour for exercise.
    Utilizing intermittent fasting 12:12 has been helpful and allowed me to be more mindful about food. I eat within a 12 hour window. During the other 12 hours I have water, tea, or coffee, no sugar or creamer.
    Again, there is nothing about this you can't do...
    756 days ago
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