Too many voices
Thursday, July 18, 2019
**WARNING** Bitchin' and pity party blog
There are too many voices and opinions out there on how we should eat and live. Keto, sugar free, fat free, calorie counting, fasting, blah blah blah. How do I know what's the best plan for me and would I be able to stick with it? I'm not great at being consistent with my eating.
I'm supposed to be eating low sodium because of my Meniere's but the fact is I can't stand bland food and I can't figure out how to season with anything that makes it taste good. I've tried all of the Mrs. Dash substitutes and they're ok, but it's still not the same. So I give up and go back to just eating "normal." We don't eat much processed food and not many sweets. I make dinner at home almost every night - we rarely eat out. I go back and forth on going low carb or cutting sugar totally out of my diet. But I'm afraid I won't stick to it. I give in too easily, I know how I am.
So the fat remains on this body and I struggle to be consistent in doing what I know has worked in the past. I've done best when I track my food in Sparkpeople but I haven't been doing that even. I know I eat for more reasons than being hungry and having a desk job doesn't help. I love to eat. I love food. I look forward to what I am going to eat today. Food really has too big of a place in my head, I know.
I have visions in my head about exercising and getting back in shape like I was a few years ago. Back then I was at a healthy weight and able to do things that I'm just not able to do anymore because I'm so out of shape. I'm embarrassed of the way I look and how old this body has become. If I don't do something about it now it's only going to go downhill.
The sad thing is I KNOW from losing weight in the past that I feel so much better when I'm not hauling around all these extra pounds, but sometimes it just all feels too hard. (I know...waaa...stop my sniveling!)
Not sure what my point or reason was for this blog. I guess I just have a lot of voices and thoughts rolling around in my head and wanted to get it out.
So, today - it's a new day. Press the reset button.
I can make good decisions today and not sabotage myself. I have to just take it one day at a time. Maybe even one hour at a time.