Today I woke up thinking of ways that I can distress myself.
One thing I do realize I love being on Sparkpeople, it gives me a sense of hope and relief knowing that they have teams that you can join. In order for the team group to help you out is to be active within the group. I been on Sparkpeople since 2011 it helped me out and I lost some weight and I noticed that soon I become inactive I gain the weight back.
This time around I decided to create a team of my own. The team is called “Embrace positive and Let go of the Negative”, so far nobody join it, however, it takes time to build.
Yesterday, I went to the doctor and we talked about my weight issue because I am tired of carrying this weight around. I don't want to take any medication because I know I can do this, if I lost the weight before I know I can do it again.
I figured it out if nobody told me that I was an alcoholic and I didn’t go to treatment for it. And getting my DUI in July 12,2016 and that didn’t stop me from drinking. I had to put my mind to it and then one day 1-22-2017 I stopped cold turkey. That following next month I went to the water, with my sage, and tobacco and prayed to the creator. To show me the right way to live.
During my sobriety I dealt with issues that I avoid when I was drinking. However, there’s one thing that I didn’t embrace was my emotions that I dealt with when I was stressed out over things I can’t control.
So, on Jan 22, 2019 I decided to release that little girl, the next day I stopped biting my nails, when I was nervous, stressed, or bored I would bite my nails if I didn’t have nothing to chew on.
Going forward, I will learn my hungry clues, and think of other ways to deal with stress. I know I am an emotional eater. I just realized what my triggers are. I will try my best to journal.