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Inner child August 9th 2019

Friday, August 09, 2019

August 9th 2019

I am happy to realize what cause me to anxiety which is certain people and them making do something I am not comfortable with.

You when you call me I start to panic when I see your name on my caller id and let it ring because i know what you and I can’t allow myself to go backwards. And when we talk our conversation start out good and then it turns into a topic I wish not to talk about. I am very happy that you maintain your sobriety. I can’t be that person who you met 9 years ago. We both had addictions going on, and what you did to me then, I can’t forget it. I can only forgive and move on.
I am in my own recovery that’s trying to heal from two addictions. So when you call me I get very fidgety and want to eat something.

There are other things and people that I either get stressed or get anxiety and when these emotions reach it high peak that’s when I want to relapse or I just want to eat something and don’t stop till I get really full to a point that I am getting sick.

I never knew this was going to be a hard process to handle because I let my emotion control my eating habits for so long. And I have a long journey to go because I am either writing about a picture and how that picture makes me feel or what is happening right now emotions.

One Thing I say to myself is this is going to baby steps along the way, and don’t look back when you are done writing about the emotion, because that’s the past and you only can forgive and move forwards. The inner Child will not forget it, it will always pop up in a different form, it's all about how you handle it this time around. Your Inner Child is all about forgiving and loving .
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    @KPHEALTHY4LIFE yes, I always have contact with my HP and I will listen to his voice.

    @FIT2FINISH thank you, yest its baby steps and I am feeling good each day.

    @PHATPAT18 very true. and my list of those people that trigger my anxieties is getting long.

    Thank everyone that took time to read this blog

    673 days ago
    Keep in contact with your HP- HP will get you through
    674 days ago
    You are meeting your journey with courage and respect. Baby steps are just fine. Some days just showing up will be just fine. You can do
    674 days ago
    We all know people that trigger our anxieties and should avoid them when possible.
    674 days ago
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