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Wednesday, September 04, 2019

Hello, in the past couple of weeks I been on here less and less, the past few days not at all. I have been doing what I am really good at, avoiding people, the truth.....the truth being that I am not doing too good, have practically gone back to eating the way I did before, as though it were my last day on earth. Why Have I been avoiding here, because of guilt, because here I have to face up to my bad habits, and well, how can I encourage others when I am not even encouraging myself. And I am so sorry, I apologize to everyone. On Saturday p, I had a gastric attack, not a gasto.....and was out flat (on the sofa) all day bundled up,for winter wearing a fleece hoodie and a fleece blanket on top, I was freezing, and I haphazardly discovered Space network was having a Harry Potter marathon, so I barely opened my iPad. Even my sweet hubby was tolerant and left the tv on the marathon (although I can’t count how many times ‘ve seen them) it ran for 3 days......
As it is Wednesday, I weighed myself this morning and I lost .2 lbs......but my body does this, it teases me, see you still can still eat bad, and then it rears up and the weight packs on. This morning I need a whip, a kick in the butt, something........
I am truly sorry for trying to run away yet again.......
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    Where are you?
    373 days ago
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    631 days ago
    HUGS my dear! NO apologies needed. This is not a straight-line journey, for sure. BUT do take care of yourself!

    HUGS (can't have too many of them).
    666 days ago
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    Oh gosh, I hope you're feeling better! Trust me, we all have those days (and weeks)...please keep coming back, this a judgment-free zone ;-).
    689 days ago
    Believe me, you're not alone. No apologies necessary. Glad that you are back, though. HOPING you're feeling a little better.

    694 days ago
    No, you need a hug and a sympathetic shoulder. We've been there. Isn't it ironic that when we need Spark the most, we stay away? Many times it's exactly what we need to pick ourselves up and get back on track.
    I've been thinking of you as I work on my vision board. Just saying...
    694 days ago
  • GORDON66
    You don't need to apologize to anyone. It's called life, and sometimes it gets pretty hard. Be kind to yourself and do the best you can. emoticon


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  • JUSTME29
    I know a lot of people here on spark that I count as friends. That keeps me checking in regularly, but I find that I have a tendency to use this a social opportunity rather than really using the tools available. I hope you are feeling better now.
    694 days ago
    You are not alone. I am in the same boat. Avoiding this is the easy way out. Keep pushing.
    695 days ago
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