Spark, the touchstone

Hi friends,
It's been a long time but I have been lurking. I have been on a health roller coaster since our move this summer. My last blog tells of all my excitement in finding my amazing practitioner. I couldn't wait to meet with her for a follow up and I had an appointment scheduled for a few Mondays ago. I was to get current labs before the follow up and I use a certain place because I like to see the portal and check my labs before my appointments. I woke up Saturday morning to my TSH. It was last in the mid 2's and I feel better closer to 1 which is what we were trying to acheive. No joke my current TSH is 57.98. If you aren't familiar with TSH the Reference Range is :0.34 uInt Unit/mL - 5.60 uInt Unit/mL.....yeah. I've never been higher than a 7 and those were dark days. Needless to say I, I am feeling discouraged. I am sleepy, sluggish and FAT. I went to urgent care that evening to at least get 30 days of my old meds back and then have a new appointment on Monday. I think my feelings were most hurt because my favorite practitioner didn't even call me. Like that's a scary high lab result.
I am not trusting my foggy, emotional brain these days but I at least know better and can say to myself, "be kind, your chemically "off" temporarily". So, I got new glasses because I felt so unattractive in my old ones that I would never wear them and couldn't see or felt depressed when I had to. Kind of silly but it helped tremendousy. I also worked out for the first (and only) time this week and it reminded me of Spark, my friends here, all the hope and struggle and strength in this community and I was so happy. Sometimes a recollection of the Glory Days is all the hope we need to move in the right direction again. SO back again and always. So grateful for this community.