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Running up That Hill

Tuesday, December 10, 2019

It's supposed to get easier, isn't it?

I've been away since October. Traveling, at first. Traveling was decadent. "I'm on vacation!" I'd shout with glee as I stuffed every foreign, blessed vegan treat down my gullet. But I walked miles per day. Every day.

Home again, I thought I'd give my weary feet, longing heart and jet-lagged self a break. That break lasted a long while.

Isn't it weird how SparkPeople can be the most lively, caring and wonderful space when we're on a good path - and a looming monolith of intimidation when we're not?

I'm really not complaining; I'm just taking a good, long, searching look at myself. I'm tipping a toe into the pond as I've done countless times before.

Before I completely recommit though, I want to take an honest inventory of why. I want to include all the thoughts and facts about my health and lifestyle, while wrestling with all of my concerns about self-acceptance and the societal fat-shaming that I hate - and the ways Diet Culture play into it.

No matter where I go, Spark and my teams and my friends here await patiently.

Thank you, my friends.

"It doesn't hurt me
Do you want to feel how it feels?
Do you want to know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
Do you want to hear about the deal that I'm making?
You, it's you and me" - Kate Bush "Running up That Hill"
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    Beautifully and perceptively articulated. I can relate, and your sharing comforts my heart. Thank you for Kate's lyrics and YT link. emoticon
    33 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/23/2019 11:19:32 AM
    I for one am super glad that you are back. Your sweet presence is a treasure. (No pressure though)
    43 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/13/2019 8:46:26 AM
    We ALL hit bumps in the healthy lifestyle road (heck, I've wandered off the road ENTIRELY before!). It's good to step back and look and why you left the road, and what kept you from getting back on once you realized you were out in the field somewhere. Knowledge is power, and that kind of self-reflection helps us be more successful in accomplishing what we REALLY want. We're here when you're ready!
    45 days ago
    Hop on when you are ready! Glad you had a good vacation!
    45 days ago
    I totally forgot about that song
    46 days ago
    yes welcome back I looked for you and saw no activity was hoping you were enjoying some time with yourself and others as well.

    Will continue to watch for you when you are back into the swing of things. emoticon
    46 days ago
    Welcome back any time you're ready!

    46 days ago
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