Saturday, January 04, 2020
Yesterday was the 3rd year anniversary of my best friends Mom's passing. She was a Mother to me and it is a very difficult day.
This Christmas was my first one without my Nanny and she has been gone for 6 months now. My emotions have been all over the place. I wish I were not an emotional eater but I don't have it under control yet, I'm still practicing apparently.
The important lesson learned for myself is that I need to let go of what I think or how I think things should be and accept what is. Enjoy time with people and in the moment where I am. I feel like my biggest flaw is that I build things up in my head or daydream how the outcome should be and it never turns out that way. Sometimes this causes me great sadness and other times frustration; that is in me and I want to let that go. My son's are grown and now both have officially moved out of the house. We are grandparents which is amazing because our Grandson is beyond amazing and is starting to develop a little personality that could melt you.
I did not make any resolution this year I am keeping on keeping on. That's it. I will continue on my volunteer adventures, kayaking, traveling and try to enjoy my family whenever they make time for me.