Even though it's been a Very Bad day, I'm continuing to track my nutrition, stay within my calorie goals, exercise for at least 10 minutes or more, do my physical therapy, drink plenty of water (and trying to stay positive - which has been a real struggle)
I haven't blogged in 5 days and one of my very kind Spark friends got in touch and asked how I am doing and said she missed my blogs. I appreciate that very much. One reason I haven't blogged is because my life really isn't interesting enough to blog daily - maybe weekly? And the other main reason is because I'm still having a stressful family situation and am feeling very sad. I felt I shouldn't blog unless I felt positive and could motivate and inspire others in some small way.
It occurred to me tonight that maybe blogging about my struggles could help me and others, too, so here I am. The way I've managed to stay on track today (when I normally would have thrown in the towel and given up on my goals!) is by:
Planning out my meals to make sure I knew what I could eat today and not go over my calorie goal. I even planned one comforting thing to eat as part of my plan.
I made myself get my umbrella and go out in the rain to walk. I only walked 11 minutes, but that it still keeping my Spark streak and it was nice to be outside on a rainy day.
I always drink plenty of water, so that was easy.
I did my PT later in the evening, but still got it done.
I didn't "feel" like doing any of these things, but I did them anyway. I'm used to eating to make the bad feelings go away (and truthfully, I wanted to binge on chocolate, but didn't). The hardest thing about not using food to handle emotions is that you are forced to feel the feelings and that is so difficult. I succumbed to tears and unsettling thoughts, but I also prayed a lot.
Still, I made it through the day and stayed on track and that has made me feel more control of my life in the midst of a situation that I have very little control over.
I read a Spark article about why people don't keep resolutions and I created a document detailing the reasons I really want to lose weight and get healthier. I also posted on my teams and supported others, and read and commented on blogs. As usual, being on SparkPeople helped me feel both useful and encouraged.
I hope tomorrow is a better and brighter day, but if it's not, I will continue to stay the course. It's the only thing that makes sense. Bad days will come, but better days are always just around the corner. We just have to hang on until they get here.
I still believe, with determination and perseverance, along with the support of others, we can all reach our goals. I'm wishing everyone all the best in reaching theirs.
Hugs to all.