Monday, January 27, 2020
Lately I feel like I'm in one of those movie moments where the lead character keeps seeing the faces and hearing the words from all the people in my life that have put me down in one way or another.
I'm tired of the impression being overweight has given people over the years. The impression that I don't love myself enough to say no. The impression that I don't respect myself enough to stand up for myself or walk away from toxic behaviors and toxic people. The impression that I'm somehow invisible despite my size. I'm tired of feeling like I disappoint the people I care about and most of all I'm tired of disappointing myself.
Right now, today, here as I write this, I am grateful for my mind and body. I want to trust myself and trust the process I know will get me where I need to go. Right now I'm going to love myself as I am. I'm not going to keep telling myself when I reach a certain weight or accomplish certain things then I will be happy and love myself. I'm going to be happy and love myself right now, today.
I've wasted so much time letting the things other people have done and said to me in my life dictate how I see myself and what I deserve. I'm taking back my power and I'm unleashing the boss b*!#$ inside of me.
I know who I am and what I'm capable of.