Saturday, February 01, 2020
Today started a little rough for me. I had not yet taken before pics to compare progress with. So I figured the 1st of the month would be the perfect start. So I did my before pics and it was like a punch to the gut. I have been so proud of myself this month. My goal has been to loose 1.5 a week and I have accomplished that goal. I have been tracking my food, exercising and been conscience about my food choices.
Then I took the pictures. It really was a devastating moment. For me they are really hard to look at. I feel disgusted in my skin. I'm not saying all this to get sympathy but maybe more as a way for me to express my inner feelings to help me face them. On one hand I am grateful that I am not satisfied with my look as that will help motivate me to stick with it. On the other hand I don't like that I am so negative about myself. Although I have some things I really need to change I have some really good attributes as well.
I am kind and try to show other people love. I take care of my family. I am sarcastic and fun and can be silly at times. I hear I have an infectious laugh. When I think of my personal attributes, I love my eyes and my feet. LOL, yes I love my feet. Also, my hands. Okay, so I see what I'm doing there......none of those attributes can gain weight! LOL. Well maybe they could but mine don't.
So I had my pitty party this morning and then got up and worked out. I did 30 minutes of some video on Beach Body for plus size women. Which made me laugh several times as I side stepped and did rainbow arms and side stepped and did chop the vegetable arms (which is really more like robot arms to me but........). In the end I was sweating like crazy.
Then we spent the rest of the day exploring the Northern Nevada desert (no where near Vegas, like literally the opposite side of the state). Was a beautiful day hitting 67 degrees and sunshine and our blue blue blue Nevada skies.
So although my day started out negative and kind of crappy for myself, it ended spectacularly with my family and dogs. Enjoying our unique state and fitting in some additional exercise.