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Tuesday, February 25, 2020

Here I am. Back on spark after seeing the highest number I've ever seen on a scale(280lbs).

2019 was wierd. had a wonderfull cruise from Tokyo to Vancouver BC, found a new job after searching for a few years, broke a leg (tibial plateau fracture) wich required surgery and 6 screws, did my rehab and started walking again.

Unfortunately, my right knee (who had been giving me a hard time in the last few years) decided that having to be the sole supporter of my body for 6 weeks, had had enough. after rehabilitation of my left leg, I couldn't really walk because of it. For whatever reason, this sent me into a self pity downward spin.

That is the weird part. I have had so much worst in my life. Why would this be such a drama. I will get knee replacement surgery and it will be fixed why would it affect me that much? Plus I love the new job so no reason to feel so bad.

I haven't solved that mystery yet. but now I am getting back on the horse, willing to make the changes that will last. That is why I am back here. I realise that every time I get away from here, I gain weight. I should always be here. Even more when I don't feel that good about myself. It would keep me from gaining so much.

Since I can't walk my 10000 steps a day for now, I will have to concentrate more on my food intake and do some aerobics on chair. But I think that if I can lose a bit of weight each week by eating better, it will be enough. When I get my leg back or when summer arrives and I can use the pool, I will just lose faster. I realise that focusing on exercise is good but if I can't exercise for whatever reason, and I don't have the food part under control, I gain weight. So better get the food part in check.

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    Welcome back. I am also back after hitting a very high weight again. I hope your knee heals well.
    272 days ago
    It’s great to see you back.
    274 days ago
    You have been through so much and soldiered on, maybe you can love up on yourself a bit :). WATERMELLEN has some great blogs on loving yourself.

    Missed you :)
    274 days ago
    Glad you've come back. Hope all goes well w/your knee replacement. Have had 2 of them. Easy?? No, but feel soooooo much better afterwards.

    Good luck.
    274 days ago
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  • 240POINT6
    Baby steps....a step forward is motion. The fact that you are back is an acknowledgment that you need to take care of yourself. Welcome back!
    274 days ago
  • JOANN25
    You are solving your problems by doing what you can do. A lot of people with the problems you have would rather lie in bed and feel sorry for themselves. You have been there done that and now you are back on SP solving your problems in the only way possible. emoticon

    274 days ago
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