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Water Me - Lizzo + A Light @ The End of the Tunnel

Monday, July 06, 2020

Heyyyyy you beautiful ray of sunshine.

Thanks for taking the time to read this blog.

I hope you know how much it means to mean to be a part of this community. It's not always stardust and rainbows on the Community Feed but 99.99% of the time, I feel so supported, informed, motivated, or celebrated by all of the Sparkers that I've come across.

Since Vanessa Gullien's brutal murder was uncovered during the 4th of July weekend and just more terrible global news in general, I think we all have something to be really upset about right now.

I binged.

This may sound crazy; I might sound mad as a hatter but: I'm proud of myself for learning from my mistakes and making gradual changes in my healthy lifestyle.

There, I said it, and my inner voice can't bully me into taking it back.

I'm proud of myself.

I ordered pizza one night -I didn't order a bunch of sides and sodas and a dessert. I ordered a pepperoni pizza and it was good.-

Between eating terrible, I snacked well, worked out, got lots of sleep, and leaned on my support system.

There was another night of bad eating.

Instead of getting the massive double bacon cheeseburger I wanted from Five Guys, I got the Veggie Burger w/Cheese -it was almost HALF of the calories of the other burger I wanted...-.

I still ate a 💩 ton of fries though.

And a salted caramel milkshake.

I loved it.

Then I loved the Biggest Loser Bootcamp workout that I did before bed that night.

Most recently, I was craving Taco Bell. I focused on protein and veggies and managed to only binge about 1,000 calories this morning.

But I'm still standing (I loveeeee Elton John.)

I watched my first Stars Wars movie with my fiancé last night and then woke up early this morning to workout. I crushed my Week 2 Day 1 workout and now I'm about to go grab a protein shake and apple.

I also drank 3 cups of water so far today.

I'm celebrating every single success from here on out! Life is too short, too beat myself down.

The world does enough of that already.

So, after a quick check-in with my favorite community of people-centered on healthy living (It's you!) I'm about to spend a couple of hours walking around to do some grocery and household shopping.

Then I'll be studying, doing chores, and making dinner.

The only reason I'm so uplifted and positive rn is because, to me, the last week worked!
I mean if I only half-a**** it and binged heavily for 4 days and STILL MAINTAINED MY WEIGHT just by doing 3/4 of the basic healthy living goals I have ( good sleep, good hydration, and good exercise -- my eating was not good.)... then I know I can lose my goal of 3 lbs by my next weigh-in on Sunday!

I hope that makes sense lol.

Basically it means, I'm focused rn y'all. It also means if I make a mistake, I'm not going to rip myself apart.

I can do this and I can be better than I was yesterday.

You can too!

This week has helped me remember that as long as I don't give up, there will be a light at the end of the tunnel for me.

What's helped you stay focused? What's your "why"?

I'm keeping this at the forefront of my mind as I return to classes at Independence University on 07/20 to start working towards my Bachelor's in Business Administration (emphasis in Marketing), The Supermajority Education Fund Leadership Cohort that starts on July 14th, and so many other important milestones in my abundant life.

I hope that y'all are doing well and that you look at the links I have below if you want to learn more about any of the things I mentioned.

Also, please send me a SparkMail if you want to connect further! I'm always excited to make another SparkFriend!

You're amazing (and I am too),


P.s. - Thanks for the comments on my pics lol Nick and I will be sure to and snap another one while we grab a meal during shopping :) (I'll probably post a picture of what I'm eating too bc y'know...accountability?)


Some links for y'all to learn a lil:

What does "mad as a hatter" mean?:

Still Standing - Elton John:

Water Me - Lizzo:

The Supermajority Education Fund:
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    emoticon Love the blog and your writing flow!
    111 days ago
    You're such a fun writer to read. Gonna friend ya, so I see you in my feed (whoops, rhyme alert).

    The feed CAN be such a problem. Just like any feed...depends on who you follow, & general audience. Some of the general audience here are SO great and amazing. Also some really interesting folks. Then there are some here who drove me off the site in Feb & Mar (specifically the feed) because I was SO pissed off at *rump & handling of covid, and their remarks were so OFF the mark, so much whining, racism, hateful crap (that word is allowed by the FCC, so should be okay here) and remarks of such stupidity and ignorance and denial and $&*(!!!&** (I figured we'd be basically where we are now, though I hoped against hope that we wouldn't...I knew partly cuz I'm an old, and as an old lesbian, who watched her gay male roommate die from AIDS (because of similar gop bs, w/ a heaping helping of homophobia- society's and even my fam's) I was screaming inside at everyone to get it together and figure it out; I finished stocking up on Feb. 29). But then I came back to spark, gingerly, because I started to gain, and I was NOT in the mood after I'd had a really good Jan., and people here were now in shock, so less of the BS than I'd seen in Feb & March. It's really a great site, but limited by our all too human imperfections.

    As to weight of the things (like covid's death rate) is that the scale can be/usually is... a lagging indicator. So tally up some NSV's (non-scale victories) that you are going for, and you will find some you didn't even think of along the way, and note those too. Reward yourself for *your* behaviours, because the scale will move in fits and starts, but it will move, sooner or later, if you follow your plan. Check out 'bullet journals' to keep track of your target habits (or you can use the 'other' tracker on spark)

    One 'genius' thing I ran across a few years ago: treat weight loss / a healthy lifestyle ...LIKE A JOB. Just as you wouldn't majorly cheat an employer, don't majorly cheat yourself; it's a day in-day out set of procedures. Make it easy to fit into your everyday life, especially healthy eating, because that's where the bulk of changes will be effect'd from... (& you CAN find healthy options even at most fast food places nowadays, esp. taco bell...a vegan friend & I drove across the country a decade ago; we mostly survived on taco bell-gotta love the 7 layer burro, though she replaced sour cream & cheese with more beans & rice). Fries...I'm just not that into them, anymore; I like a few, but they aren't my binge (however, ice cream....); but I've always been a sweet vs. salty tooth. Also, there's a thing called an air fryer, that's supposed to be a much more healthful way of eating them; haven't tried them, but it might be a useful gadget to look for during Black Friday or on the wedding gifts list? Just to eat fries occasionally healthfully?? Pizza's not SO bad...I tend to prefer a whole wheat crust (but I've been a whole wheatie for decades now) and some cheese is an okay protein (was key when I was a new vegetarian, decades ago), plus the tomato sauce is full of lycopenes, and some pepperoni is more protein. Again, moderation and variety in the amounts (maybe throw in some vegs on there, for more satiety and to hit one of your daily servings...could have a big, satisfying salad full of great veg for lunch, a healthy breakfast and snacks, & it can be a totally on-plan meal option.

    Anyway, sounds like your attitude is way up, and that's great to read. Remember, you can do this! Thanks for the Lizzo song...didn't think of it previously when I was thinking about water, which is definitely one of my harder goals to reach consistently, over time, now that I don't live in the desert. (Was 2nd nature there) Oh, & LOVE that you are in supermajority's new cohort! Congrats!!!
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    112 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/7/2020 11:39:23 PM
    Your outlook is great this week! Keep it up!! My major why is I want to do all the outdoors things I used to love, like skiing and hiking (plus health concerns)
    113 days ago
  • RETAT60
    Your attitude and perspective are fabulous!!! Thank you for brightening my day and inspiring me to look for the positive.
    113 days ago
  • ALOFA0509
    Your doing Awesome!! Keep at it Girl⭐️ *Tip* When posting live links on Spark; You nedd to remove the "S" in (https) in order for the link to work,, one of those Only Spark Land Kinda thing! Lol.. Cheers! Your doing Great-
    113 days ago
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