Saturday, July 11, 2020
Well just checking in here to let you all know that it appears that condition is improving and strength is returning. But, I've got to tell you. It's not all it's cracked up to be. I was able to mow my lawn for the first time this year yesterday and I was psyched about that. But it took it's toll on me. When my therapist said I could mow my lawn I was thrilled. But have to be honest and tell you all that it was a "chore". I picked a cooler day to do the mowing so that helped. It was later on in the evening hours (7pm) so the sun had gone down and there was a nice cool breeze to help me stay as cool as I could. However, it was a chore. It took me an hour to just mow the back yard and I still have the front yard to mow, which will happen today before the rain (I'm hoping). But here's the thing. My hands and fingers have been acting up from just getting into this mowing. Little did I know that my hands would take the worst of this activity. I now know what arthritis feels like for the first time in my life. But where there's a will, there's a way. I am not going to let this get me down or cause me to not continue to be as active as I can possibly be. I have realized that, despite the pain, the aches and the soreness and tiredness, that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I know this is only temporary and that this too, in time, will pass. It's just a negative I have to deal with while the positive is getting into place. I never knew how I wasn't using my hands enough to avoid this but live and learn, right? Right. Anyways, I have found that the mowing of the lawn has helped immensely with the strength in my back and in my hips and legs. Of course it would. You're moving every part of your body when you do this. However, I also noticed that after I was done with the mowing, I began to limp again, just like in the past. I guess it's just an old habit now and something I have to be more aware of when it occurs. The moment I see it happening, I have to remember to walk TALL, legs STRAIGHT, and walk much slower as I take every forward step, coming down on my heel first as I take my steps. You know what? It works! The limp is gone and the strength is being built up within the leg areas. Who would've guessed???? Anyways, I have learned that I have to be more alert and aware of all that is going on in my body throughout the day. If I can remember to do these little things, my recovery will be even faster than I or anyone else had anticipated. It's a bite, I admit it, to have to go through all this but let's face it. If I hadn't been so negligent in the way I treated my body over the many years I SAT and worked in front of a computer for my real estate biz, I wouldn't be in this situation in the first place. When I think of that, I get really angry at myself but it is what it is. If my negligence over the years can help even one of you to not get to the point where I wound up, then my going through all this will be worth it. If it means that someone out there can rectify the beginning of this saga before it's too late, then I will not have suffered in vain. I know God works in His own ways and I know that God had all this happen to me for a reason. Never really understood why but then we don't always have to know what God's intentions are or why He does what He does. Now, as I am in my recovery period and realizing and focusing on rectifying what I had gone through, I know there was a reason for me going through it all. Partially, it was to help any of you out there that can relate to what I've gone through and fix it before your situation gets any worse. The other part of going through it all was to realize it all for myself and make me more aware of my body so this scenario will never happen again.
So now I'm going to go out and attempt to finish the mowing of my lawn today before it rains later. I am going to my mind and my thoughts on anything other than my aches and pains, soreness and tiredness. Onward and upward will be my new catch phrase right now so wishing you all well on this beautiful day the Lord has given us!