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Staying Positive in 2020?

Friday, July 31, 2020

Hey again! Tomorrow is August 1st of 2020! I can't believe it. I just had my 35th Birthday a couple weeks ago. Time is still flying by.

Overall, my life is fine. It isn't the best, isn't the worst, isn't very exciting. I am still going to work every day although we are still in pandemic mode in the US. I wear my mask, clean my hands, wipe down everything, and still try to keep on going. I feel like I am in a fog most of the time just drifting along trying to find an open patch of clarity.

My Dad has been having a lot of health issues recently which really stinks. I have seen my parents, but I try to keep my distance when possible. I have good and bad days like most people I know. I don't expect every day to be Exciting - but we had to cancel so much this year. I am trying to be content knowing we were fortunate enough over the years to even have parties and go on vacations. We only saw a few of our friends since March. I feel like I am just moving along without accomplishing much.

We have a semi-garden this year with some cucumbers, basil, dumpling squash, and a little bit of dill. I have mostly the same routine every day. Water the plants, work, go home, repeat. I miss having game nights and planning fun things to do with my family and friends. I can still talk to them, but it isn't the same as getting together and spending quality time together in person.

I keep falling off the horse, out of the wagon, getting stuck in the mud, etc etc. I *know* I have been having some depression and anxiety in my life which is causing me to stay lazy & unmotivated. Usually I am disappointed at myself when I gain weight. That disappointment usually pushes me to high gear... this time I just feel indifferent with gaining the weight back. I don't like it, but I am also somewhat content with just living my life. I have "restarted" my healthier lifestyle so many times because Life gets in the way.

I decided I really need to make a serious change in my lifestyle to get back on track. It has been 2 years now where I have been slowly gaining more weight and becoming physically lazy. This past Jan to June I lost 20 pounds in 6 months but gained 10 of it back in a month already.

I recently got a bonus from work. I saved most of it, but I am using some of the money towards some products to help kick start me back in gear. I've been too lazy to really meal prep so I just ordered a kit of frozen smoothie kits. I ordered some protein powder because the container I found in the back of the cabinet expired over a year ago! I am hoping spending a bit more money to kick start this good habit again will help me get back to being healthier with more energy!!!!!!! I am hoping making good choices will help me become more positive with my outlook on life right now!

I could do more, but I still worry about Covid. Maybe in the next few weeks I will feel better and will hopefully feel more like ME again.
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    emoticon You are likely doing better than most people. These are strange times and you need to focus on what you want your life to be like next year. Use the next 6 months to prepare yourself to be the best you can be. I can speak from experience on this... I want to come out of 2020 better than I went into it. I am losing weight and exercising daily (never did that before).

    Keep blogging and in time you will get moving again.
    360 days ago
    This pandemic has affected a lot of us emotionally. There have been so many changes to how we live our daily lives right now.

    Just keep working on getting healthier and take it one day at a time.

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    364 days ago
    Good luck! Hopefully the new treats will help you be motivated
    364 days ago
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