August 2020 Goals & Realizations

Hey there. I am trying to start small again. I did it before & I can do it again!!!

Two of my main goals when I first started on Spark were to be less stressed & more confident in myself. In general, I try not to be as stressed & I am more confident in who I am. I know I have been a decent person and I try to help out everyone when I can. I just need to turn back to myself and do more for me. I realize what happened and how I slipped. When I as at my goal weight, I needed to workout 4-5 days a week. When I got married and moved into my home, I did still workout for a while but then I just got used to my life. I didn't want to keep up with working out that much. So I cut back. I gained 10 pounds and was content with how things were. For about a year, my weight was about the same. I was still happy with my weight and still worked out at the gym. I had workout buddies but then that stopped. I stopped working out and stopped making healthier batch meals. I started feeling lazy with my cooking and just had easy meals instead of lots of fresh veggies. The weight just starting coming back instead of staying off. I let my body slide back into chubby mode again. I was hoping eating mac & cheese wouldn't make me gain weight again but it did. Damn! Time to move forward again!!!!!! Restart, move on, drop some pounds in the process!

I read through my old blogs. Again. For the 50th time I'm sure! It was really great to read through the good and bad days. I remember hitting all of the goals. It was a great feeling. I bought things like a running belt that held water, went to Zumba or Yoga 3 times a week, ran 5k races. I tried my "first crockpot meal". I bought new clothes because my old ones were too big. I had a dresser drawer full of workout clothes. I still have the same clothing, but they don't fit!

Now, I still make crockpot meals but only once or twice a month. Now, I barely go for walks because the humidity is 85%. I haven't worked out at the gym in a year and a half?? I canceled my subscription a long time ago because I didn't want to waste the money when I wasn't going. I had to buy a couple new pairs of pants because my old ones were too tight. It sucks I am hoping to lose weight again and these pants will be a waste, but I had to buy them so I could wear them to work without feeling squeezed all day!

In my mind I feel OK about where I am, but I really need to get back to the healthier Kim who will willing to do more to be better. I feel a little ashamed that I need to start over again and hit those goals again. However, I know it is the right thing to do.

Small goals are the way to go again. I did it before. I am doing it again!!!

August 2020 Goals:
-Commit to being healthy again
-More water!
-Bought some healthier foods to make overnight oats & smoothies.
-Healthier menu instead of quick, fatty meals
-Tracking some calories to make sure I don't overeat too much
-No nighttime snacking!!
-Add some more exercise (like walking)
-Find a way to get into the mentality that being healthier is DOABLE & POSSIBLE