Babies! Babies! Babies!, oh and marriage!
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
I am struggling with baby/wedding envy big time. My friend is getting married in 2 weeks and is also 5 months preggo.....I am so jealous of her life it isn't even funny. I have a beautiful 1 yo boy, who I love so dearly. I want to add to my family so bad....my boyfriend on the other hand...no more babies "right now", whatever that means, and doesn't want to tie the knot. I feel so depressed about it. I know my friend has nothing to do with it. I want what she has for myself. My BF and I have been together for 4 years! I love him with every part of me.... him and our son are my life. He is definatly one who doesnt think marriage is a big deal, and it makes me feel not good enough to marry. ::sigh:: I just don't know if i can wait around for him to be ready! I am ready.