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Thursday, August 20, 2020

Funnily enough the last blog was titled “where does the time go?” How priceless lol!! The shortest possible version of past and present is as follows...
272 was my highest weight of all time.
I had lost 40 lbs three times only to gain it all back plus more.
In 2012 I finally got it together and I went on to lose 90 pounds in 2 years. I entered Onederland for the first time as an adult.
I kept it off and additional two years and managed to stay in ONEderland.
I slowly start to regain the weight. I settled around 230 pounds (down from a low of 181) but managed to stay around that weight an additional two years.

Present: I started 2020 around 240 and in February I started doing really well. I lost 10 pounds in two weeks, I had a routine of exercising and eating properly and then as we know the world got kicked out from under us. I easily regained the 10 pounds I’ve lost and an additional 14 more. I know in my heart if I don’t do anything soon I’m going to reach an all time high weight and that is definitely something that will defeat me once and for all. I have not done anything positive this year since the apocalypse started lol! I look back on the person who lost 90 pounds in 2012-2013 and she doesn’t even feel like me. It was so long ago and I honestly don’t know if I have the strength and ability to do it again.
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    Welcome back. Thank you for your blogging
    191 days ago
    Man, I'm glad to see you back. I have been on and off Spark for years and I don't think we ever interacted but I read your blogs. I just came back myself so it was nice to see someone I still "knew" here. I'm pretty much same - lost a bunch of weight in 2010 and 2011 and then it's been and up and down game since. And we're in the same weight range. I've been stuck in the 230-240 range forever and the 180's are like my long lost dream. Just wanted to say glad to see you back and I relate.
    192 days ago
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    192 days ago
  • LINZEE118
    We can do this together! This blog is almost as if I wrote it except for the fact I only lasted around 2 weeks in Onederland. Even our weight is very similar! emoticon emoticon
    193 days ago
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    196 days ago
    How awesome to see a blog from you! I am so happy to see it. I hope you'll come back. You can do it again. I need to do it again, too! I'm back up to my Hammond-weight! NO!!! Let's do it together.
    197 days ago
    Steph welcome back. Just do one thing at a time. Work your way back into it. Remember just work on one streak. We love you girl and want you to succeed!
    198 days ago
    Judging by all the comments ahead of mine, I'd say I'm not the only one who has missed your blogs. While I don't think any of us has given up on our journey to a healthier life, it's been a challenging time and it's been far too easy to fall back on old patterns and foods that give us comfort. Please continue to check in, and think about baby steps and building on habits -- maybe even the obvious ones like getting enough water and sleep, and focus on smaller goals like a couple of pounds at a time instead of looking at the final number. We can do this!
    198 days ago
    I was just thinking of you. Saw a commercial with a Luke Bryan and it reminded me that you hadn’t seen anything from you lately. But then I said, “oh ya, Covid, no one is going anywhere. This has really been a tough year for everyone, hasn’t it? emoticon emoticon emoticon
    198 days ago
    It’s a continuum - not an end
    198 days ago
    I'm right there with you, going to reach an all time high if I don't stop myself asap! Got back on track this week but it's so shaky. I feel like I can cave at any time. I miss Disneyland, I always used that as a motivator. Now there's no sign in sight it'll open...or travel anywhere for that matter! ugh!
    We can do this! We can stop this now!
    198 days ago
    emoticon Good to see you. Miss your posts. What can I say to you. Exercised for 60 minutes but nothing seems to work. No idea what to do.
    198 days ago
  • L*I*T*A*
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    Comment edited on: 8/20/2020 11:54:45 AM
    It is good to see you here again, Steph! ! I hear you. ..I lost my job, and took up baking, and most of my lost weight emoticon I know we can do this! My cholesterol is at an all time high, so my health is literally on the line...maybe that is the kick in the pants I need emoticon
    198 days ago
  • LINDAK25
    I wish I had all the answers, some special wisdom to help transform the world. I’m struggling, too, most of us are. I think I need to focus on taking small steps again instead of trying to find perfection. (Is there such a thing?)
    198 days ago
    Anytime I hear Luke Bryan sing I think about you. Thanks for checking in.
    Sorry you're feeling like the world got kicked out from under you. Hope you can rebuild your world into something that makes you happy.
    Hang in there. You can totally do this again.
    198 days ago
  • MARYBETH4884
    I was just wondering what you were up to. Glad you are back!!!
    198 days ago
  • SHEP231
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    198 days ago
    So happy to see you again! You know how it’s done, and I KNOW you can do it again! Hugs to you dear girl!!!!
    198 days ago
    You CAN do it! You've done it before. You CAN do it again! Time to decide!
    198 days ago
    emoticon you haven't stopped just hit a really long pause button. Start simple and don't beat yourself up. emoticon
    198 days ago
  • EISSA7
    Good to hear from you...your honest reflection on the past months of 2020 mirrors so many of us. It’s not about the # on the is all about health today/future! Take care of you, you are worth it! Please choose one thing that caused you to gain the Covid pounds and stop!! Today, choose to do something can do it!! emoticon
    198 days ago
    My dear, just the fact that you have blogged here, to me, says that you DO have what it takes to get back on a healthy path.

    These apocolyptic time definitely are enough to make even the strongest person down. Just remember, though, times are tough . . . YOU ARE TOUGHER. Some days it doesn't feel like it, but really, you are.

    HUGS and keep taking care of yourself.
    198 days ago
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    198 days ago
    Stay with us!
    198 days ago
  • LOF7203
    Keep it up
    198 days ago
    I'm so glad to see you are back! It has definitely been a difficult time with the stay at home and nothing is the same in world. I know it won't be easy, but you have lost weight in the past so you know the things that work for you. I should talk - I'm at my all-time high right now. I stopped weighing myself.
    We can struggle and do this together.
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    198 days ago
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