Free Your Mind
Tuesday, September 01, 2020
I hit a pretty big bump last night.
Been trying so hard to be good to my body, and succeeding/failing, succeeding/failing in a Sisyphean cycle - I was overwhelmed by hopelessness.
A love reminded me to be gentle and forgiving with myself, but that wasn't enough at the time to help me. I got stuck in the numerous "reasons" which, my love very gently pointed out, was its own cycle of blame, really.
"But I need to know whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!" I wailed.
"Why?" he asked.
Well, uhm.... that's a good point.
I'm meditating with a leader who emphasizes that we get to a place of mindfulness acceptance. DBT works on a principle of radical acceptance.
Not that we don't want to - need to - advocate for change, justice, fairness! I don't mean acceptance as a cop-out to let cruelty and injustice win.
But as for me, and the whole cycle of health and beating myself up for not achieving it or doing it "right" or "perfectly" -
Well, non-judgmental acceptance would be a much better starting place.
"Free Your Mind" by En Vogue