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Halloween and the full moon

Monday, October 05, 2020

Some of you might know that I was raised in a satanic cult in which horrible things were done on halloween but especially if it fell on a full moon. I have done LOTS and years of therapy and went from being triggered by everything in the stores, being petrified and panicked on all the kids wearing masks on halloween to being able to even pass out candy to kids.

You know how memories come out in layers. I honestly thought I was done with the cult memories but this year as October hit, I feel panic and my PTSD full force. I can't stand to look or see anything about halloween in the stores, tv etc.

I have no idea why I am saying all this, I guess trying to make me feel this is real? or that if I put this out there, I will somehow be safe? I don't know.

But please be sensitive to maybe someone about this upcoming halloween and the full moon. Just writing this now makes me want to cry. why do I have to do this again? I hate this. I want this month to be over already. I just thought I had come so far and over this. Why now? Why more? I don't' want to do this again.
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    oh my dear friend .. I totally understand and send you much love .. huge hugs wrapped in peaceful protective energy ..
    You are perfect .. you have come so far .. allow the energy of this reminder to flow past .. view it .. without hanging on .. allow the emotions to rise and diminish .. as the memories and emotions return to source .. to be cleansed.

    .. I have had huge success with a healer and personal map reader .. I have been working with Erin on line since the beginning of Aug .. If you want more info by all means email me ... Erin has the ability to teach me to truly heal .. honestly it is as if someone chiseled the concrete off of my heart and cleared it away from my heart space ... we tuck that crap away thinking we have dealt with it .. sometimes we just need the help of others to guide the process ..
    You know I'm here .. always .. I'll send you an awesome meditation .. just disregard the end I had transferred it to a voice memo then forgot to end it properly ..
    you are in my prayers
    255 days ago
    With all the stress of the pandemic etc I think it's normal for old problems to show back up...I know I and a bunch of friends have all been feeling old traumas much more than normal. I hope you have the support you need in your day to day life!
    255 days ago
    I am saddened you had to experience what you have.
    You should be acknowledged for the strength it took to go through the therapy you did.
    Visit here often and know we all appreciate you and are here to support you in any way we can. Share your feelings when you need.
    You have overcome much and we all want to assist you to overcome more.

    255 days ago
    Wishing you peace and strength for your journey. Take good care of you!
    255 days ago
    I’m sorry anything upsets you so. I’m finding new coping skills in taking care of myself. From being more mindful to using the Fabulous application, to meditating with Headspace, and drinking so much water I will burst. I really like @sisugal906 com
    255 days ago
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    ☹️ hang in there. Sorry for these woes. Look for the beauty that can rewrite new memories for this month.
    255 days ago
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