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Thursday, November 12, 2020

Let me be truthful with you.
I have rare moments in my life that I've ever been happy. i'VE HAD ENOUGH.

Throughout my life, I blamed my circumstances and people in my life for my problems. As I got older, I started to take responsibility for my own life at times but was still blaming others, believing they were responsible for the damage done to my psyche.
My life continued to be one trauma and disaster after another.

I am now 66 years old and really to be frank and honest, for the benefit of others, I must say that for 99% of my life I didn't even desire to live.
I wanted so much for my life to be different but I didn't know how to go about it. But let me assure you, it is never too late and no matter your age or circumstances, you can change your life.

Most of us are programmed from early childhood, the things we believe about ourselves and other concepts about living.
I for one have carried these belief systems through my life, and I was ignorant of it.
If my family was poor then I would probably be poor too. And so many other beliefs and concepts .
The ones that have been most damaging were that I was worthless, and, no matter what I did, it was never good enough. I was a failure.
My family made several of these remarks at my early age that kept on reinforcing these beliefs about myself.
So, I went through life feeling this way about myself all these years.

Now let me tell you something, I blamed my family for several years.
My father was abusive also, which instilled in me a great simmering rage throughout the years.
As of the last decade, I no longer blame anyone for the circumstances in my life.
I have learned, the greatest truth in the world, that, 'what you think, you create.'
And I can't stress that enough. Once I learned this, the journey towards reconstructing my belief systems and working towards repairing my negative thoughts processes began.

Now why am I telling you all this? It's to give a little background of where I came from and most importantly where I'm going.

It is a decision you make.
It is a commitment to improve.

If I am not happy, if I'm not getting what I want out of life, it is imperative that I make changes, big, big, changes, and it's going to take work, hard work. You have to think BIG, not small.
I know I am not the only one who has believed that losing weight is hard or, almost impossible. I never stopped to 'THINK' otherwise. What would happen if I changed what I believe? I had never tried it. What would happen if I believed that I would lose weight, and BELIEVED it was easy? WOW! That's NOT to say it would not take work. If I want to achieve anything, I must work hard for it.
But the most important thing we will ever learn, is the universal truth that WE ARE WHAT WE THINK. It's even in the Scriptures, Proverbs 23:7.

Now I don't want to bore you so I'll get on with what happened to me and try my best to keep it narrowed down.

In the last decade I have watched motivational and success videos and read books on the subject, but then I never put any of it into action, that is, until yesterday, when I had my turning point.
I woke up and thought to myself, 'Is this all there is?' 'To be born and then wait to die having achieved nothing?'
So, it was in that moment that I made a decision that if I didn't like my life the way it was, it was up to me only to change it!

I have made a commitment to:
Pay close attention to what I think, and if it is negative, to change that thought immediately!
I have discovered, that if you don't change the way you think, you will continue to believe the things you've believed that have held you back.

I will no longer have negative conversations with myself.
I will let go of the lies I've believed in the past.
I will constantly and persistantly saturate my mind with motivation and success concepts and positivity 24/7 that i am awake.
That is the only way my life will change and ONLY if I put it in ACTION.
It will take 'WORK.'
But I can do it, I must believe now that I am unstoppable, even with obstacles, and I have unlimited potential to reach my dreams.
Saying 'I can do it' is a big step in the right direction. BELIEVING IT, will take consistant work.
I am the only one responsible for the life I HAVE CREATED because of my beliefs.

If we are not living life with satisfaction, and still hanging on to beliefs that are holding us back from the life we dream of, it is our own responsibility to change it or remain the same.

"If you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.-Albert Einstein

PAY attention to your thoughts because that in turn produces what you believe, and also your behavior patterns.

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    124 days ago
    Very well said. Good luck as you start your new journey!
    145 days ago
  • CKOUDSI617
    This rang SO TRUE with me and what I am now trying to do (again). So much of our life depends on perception and our CHOSEN responses to people and circumstances. I have been successful with this in the past, only to be chided by well-meaning friends and relatives, "You can't just turn it on and off like a light-switch; you're only deceiving yourself". I disagree. I think we can, but it takes hard work - a LOT of effort. I am from an abusive background as well, with lots of addictions in my family (as well as suicides and other, really traumatic events). TODAY, I choose differently. TODAY, I will focus on the POSITIVE and what I CAN do.

    Thank you so much for referencing this blog. I am going to reread it many times!

    Love, (Carole)
    149 days ago
    emoticon What you think about you bring about!
    150 days ago
  • LOSER05
    oh my goodness, you are a very strong person to lead the life you had to and I am really sorry you had a childhood like you did and your Dad treated you the way he did. and I Thank you for sharing your story with me and from what I just read you are going to take control and live the Happy life you DESERVE!
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    153 days ago
  • SHARON10002
    Thank you for letting me know about this blog! Your first step was indeed a giant one! The positive thinking is a good place to start. So much else depends on it. I do believe that you are on a journey of amazing self-discovery. Start small and when you feel comfortable with one thing - then add another so you lessen the chance of getting overwhelmed. emoticon emoticon
    154 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon Loved the positivity of your blog. You were right I did like it. Thank you for sharing.
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    This is a Motivational Blog to remind us work on the positive forget the negative
    154 days ago
    emoticon I am so happy for you. :') I, too, grew up poor, and feeling worthless. But you're right--we can do anything we set our minds to!
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    154 days ago
    Wow! I commend you for gong thru all you've been through and taking responsibility for your own happiness and know it is your own decisions that are important and impact your life. Good for you.

    HUGS and blessings to you.
    154 days ago
    Very powerful words. I can relate to it from my own experience of a difficult childhood and struggles that continued into my adulthood. I still have struggles too, and I hear your power and strength in your words. Accept this gift of awareness of yourself. Go for it! We’re all behind you here.
    154 days ago
    emoticon emoticon We need to pay attention to our thoughts. So glad you are, great blog emoticon
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    Comment edited on: 11/14/2020 8:38:25 PM
    WOW - what a POWERFUL Blog!!!

    Kris xxx
    154 days ago
    Beautiful! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    154 days ago
  • 1958TMC
    I am so proud of you!!!! You are an inspiration to me!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    155 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    Start with one little thing and build u from there.
    155 days ago
    I am so happy that you woke up on the positive side of life. So refreshing to hear you say that you are not going to listen to negative thoughts.
    When I was in third grade something happened to me that changed my life forever.
    I too am Native American and we have beautiful brown skin.
    When a girl in my class told me that I was dirty and needed to remove the brown skin. When I got home I went to the bathroom and used a scrub brush and soap to try to remove the brown skin. I was interrupted by my Mom asking me what in the world are you doing.
    So I told her about the little girl and what she said and my Mom told me
    "you are beautiful and God gave you the brown skin and he loves you just the way you are as does your father and mother.
    She told me that I was just as good as any one in the world."
    To this day I think of that every time I feel that I am not good enough or someone says things to me that hurt.
    I remember that I am just as good as everyone else in the world and I feel my Mothers hug and how much she loved me.

    So remember you are a special person and there is no one in the world like you.
    Be positive and live life one day at a time and wake up everyday on the positive side of life.
    You are so worth the effort.
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    156 days ago
    I am with you my friend! I am so very proud of you! You got this! Cheering you on and praying for you! Dancing with you and know that YOU are AWESOME!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • CHERYL4808
    Thank you so much for sharing your blog. Your insight sheds amazing light, and Is transformational. I’m excited for you emoticon emoticon
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    156 days ago
    emoticon I know you can continue on this positive motivational journey. We are here for you.

    156 days ago
  • KR7770
    emoticon Motivational blog... makes me think of the verse in Philippians 4:8 where we are to think on these things... God bless you for sharing your testimony... it will help others as well as yourself.
    156 days ago
    156 days ago
    This is so powerful. Thank you
    156 days ago
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