Thursday, November 12, 2020
Let me be truthful with you.
I have rare moments in my life that I've ever been happy. i'VE HAD ENOUGH.
Throughout my life, I blamed my circumstances and people in my life for my problems. As I got older, I started to take responsibility for my own life at times but was still blaming others, believing they were responsible for the damage done to my psyche.
My life continued to be one trauma and disaster after another.
I am now 66 years old and really to be frank and honest, for the benefit of others, I must say that for 99% of my life I didn't even desire to live.
I wanted so much for my life to be different but I didn't know how to go about it. But let me assure you, it is never too late and no matter your age or circumstances, you can change your life.
Most of us are programmed from early childhood, the things we believe about ourselves and other concepts about living.
I for one have carried these belief systems through my life, and I was ignorant of it.
If my family was poor then I would probably be poor too. And so many other beliefs and concepts .
The ones that have been most damaging were that I was worthless, and, no matter what I did, it was never good enough. I was a failure.
My family made several of these remarks at my early age that kept on reinforcing these beliefs about myself.
So, I went through life feeling this way about myself all these years.
Now let me tell you something, I blamed my family for several years.
My father was abusive also, which instilled in me a great simmering rage throughout the years.
As of the last decade, I no longer blame anyone for the circumstances in my life.
I have learned, the greatest truth in the world, that, 'what you think, you create.'
And I can't stress that enough. Once I learned this, the journey towards reconstructing my belief systems and working towards repairing my negative thoughts processes began.
Now why am I telling you all this? It's to give a little background of where I came from and most importantly where I'm going.
It is a decision you make.
It is a commitment to improve.
If I am not happy, if I'm not getting what I want out of life, it is imperative that I make changes, big, big, changes, and it's going to take work, hard work. You have to think BIG, not small.
I know I am not the only one who has believed that losing weight is hard or, almost impossible. I never stopped to 'THINK' otherwise. What would happen if I changed what I believe? I had never tried it. What would happen if I believed that I would lose weight, and BELIEVED it was easy? WOW! That's NOT to say it would not take work. If I want to achieve anything, I must work hard for it.
But the most important thing we will ever learn, is the universal truth that WE ARE WHAT WE THINK. It's even in the Scriptures, Proverbs 23:7.
Now I don't want to bore you so I'll get on with what happened to me and try my best to keep it narrowed down.
In the last decade I have watched motivational and success videos and read books on the subject, but then I never put any of it into action, that is, until yesterday, when I had my turning point.
I woke up and thought to myself, 'Is this all there is?' 'To be born and then wait to die having achieved nothing?'
So, it was in that moment that I made a decision that if I didn't like my life the way it was, it was up to me only to change it!
I have made a commitment to:
Pay close attention to what I think, and if it is negative, to change that thought immediately!
I have discovered, that if you don't change the way you think, you will continue to believe the things you've believed that have held you back.
I will no longer have negative conversations with myself.
I will let go of the lies I've believed in the past.
I will constantly and persistantly saturate my mind with motivation and success concepts and positivity 24/7 that i am awake.
That is the only way my life will change and ONLY if I put it in ACTION.
It will take 'WORK.'
But I can do it, I must believe now that I am unstoppable, even with obstacles, and I have unlimited potential to reach my dreams.
Saying 'I can do it' is a big step in the right direction. BELIEVING IT, will take consistant work.
I am the only one responsible for the life I HAVE CREATED because of my beliefs.
If we are not living life with satisfaction, and still hanging on to beliefs that are holding us back from the life we dream of, it is our own responsibility to change it or remain the same.
"If you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.-Albert Einstein
SPEAK ONLY POSITIVE WORDS.
PAY attention to your thoughts because that in turn produces what you believe, and also your behavior patterns.