Life can be SO Stressful Sometimes
Friday, December 18, 2020
I'm struggling this week due to stress. Part of it is that our washing machine died a couple of weeks ago and we ordered a new one, but it won't be delivered until around new years. Not a huge deal, but we cloth diaper and 2 adults, an infant, and a toddler make a lot of laundry in a few days. I've been running up to my parents house to do them, but it hard getting the diapers clean enough in their front loader. I do really appreciate their help though. They actually washed our laundry for us twice this week since my brother in law passed away Monday and we've been helping my inlaws and can't spend hours at their place.
He had been in the hospital for 2 weeks due to covid 19, so we hadn't even been able to see him recently. Life gets busy and we just had baby girl in September. The last time we saw him was when he stopped by to meet her when she was a few weeks old. My husband had been texting him up until he took a turn for the worse last week.
I really wish we'd made more of an effort to see him this year. We've been relying on him coming to see us rather than going to see him. He truly was a wonderful and generous person. When his dad got sick and started dialysis last year, he gave up his apartment and moved back home with them so he could runs the dialysis machine and my father in law could do dialysis at home instead of having to go out for it.
It's taken a toll on all of us. I'm trying to support my husband as he mourns his closest brother(he's one of 9 kids) while also caring for our infant and toddler who were sick this week. Its so hard during covid times when anyone in your family so much as coughs. Thankfully the kids both just has runny noses for a couple of days and are better now, but any time anyone gets sick nowadays, you wonder don't you?
We had the funeral yesterday and had lunch together as a family beforehand and sure enough, I ate more than I needed to, including a trigger food for me, tortilla chips.
What did that lead to? After baby girl woke me up at 230am for a feed, I couldn't stop thinking about cookies and gave in and had 4 chocolate covered pretzel sticks and 2 oreos. I know this takes me back a step, but today is a new day and I will do better diet wise. We'll also spend some time today putting together a memory book for my in laws and for the rest of the siblings. Thank goodness for Walgreens same day photo books.
On a happier note, the pic is the toddler copying the infant during tummy time. He's such a sweet big brother.