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Farwell 2020 ---welcome 2021

Friday, January 01, 2021

Happy New Year everyone!

2020 was a rough year for many....many lost their jobs, their homes, loved one's died alone in hospital's and in nursing homes, plus so much more ,as if that was not enough...and my heart truly breaks for all that had to endure any of the things that I listed.

2020 - I am thankful hubby still worked( he works for a family based company in Florida) and thankfully he was busy and the company thrived, I am an essential worker being an owner of a house cleaning business and my clients I kept on are the ones that are high risk, the others I kept them off for the year or some I retired last summer when my condition was it it's worst..
Our son was able to still work and provide for his family which was nice...our daughter -in-law was laid off ( she is a manager at a hair salon) then went back to work, now laid off again during this 28 day lockdown...and hopefully it will not be longer .
WE did loose some family members , not to Covid, and we are about to loose another family member soon( she is also one of my clients)
2020- brought me some hope for my condition as I am doing a medication trial , it has been about 5 or 6 months now...when I was on the medication( 10,25,50 mg and a placebo) I felt a difference and was starting to feel myself again...now I am off all medication this is month 2 and go back JAn 8th to see if I will continue in the trial , if so I will be on 50 mg of the medication for a year...and I really hope that I go thru as I need this to not control me anymore.
all and all 2020 sucked ...yup it did...But I am blessed in many ways, and I will be very thankful for that.

2021 .....

Hmm what can I say about this year, this is the part where I am suppose to give a list of my resolutions ....RIGHT?
awww, ya nope!
resolutions really do not work , we give it your all for ...what? maybe a month ? then we back slide for what ever the reasons..
I like to reflect on the upcoming year as a flower ...it is a bud ..you have to water it, feed it some loving and maybe some minerals, trim it when needed and let it bloom into the beautiful flower that it is....and keep it that way and keep it alive...

So what does that mean in every day life?
well that is up to you...
for me this is what that means:

Back in December in one of my blogs I stated that this condition will not run my life anymore ,,yes I have to listen to my body and not over due it but with or with out medication this will NOT run me....
will I give up on doctor's ...nope I will still fight but I need to live....

I am back to eating the way I did all my life and I felt wonderful( up until this condition started) and that was about 9 ish years ago...and every doctor I seen on this recommended to do this and to do that etc and etc...either it was Keto, or low carb, or FODMAP, or low histamine etc etc....
All my life I was a vegetarian-ish....I say that because I would eat eggs and cheese( that is a vegetarian ,I know) but about 3 times a year I would crave or my body would tell me I needed that meat...so I would eat it or some fish...
Now because of food allergies and my condition I am going back to that lifestyle except the only difference is all dairy has to be vegan ....
this way also falls in line with what this trial doctor wants..he wants me on a Anti-Inflammatory Diet...
Since going back to this way I was loosing about .5 pound a day , until the holidays hit lol...I am not far off...all thru CHristmas I never put on weight as I was in an outbreak and in bed...the last couple of days were bad and up about 2.9 pounds but that is ok...I am back at it today and that is it...

Also for me means I will no longer allow family members bring me down or over rule me anymore...this normally is not how I am , I live life not caring what people think of me or if they agree with what I am doing etc etc...but I have had a lot of deaths in my family the last 5 yrs and I was some how the primary person to deal with the after affects of the death or part of it..and you all know what that means,, some one never agrees with what the dying person wanted and I am the one left to be the punching bag ...
this has taken a toll on me so no more!
IF I am part of someone's wishes in the after life than I will be doing things a lot differently ,while they are still alive !

This year for me is to keep my bud healthy , alive and thrive
This year is to keep my depression in check as much as I can.
This year is to keep pushing thru!

I would love to hear how u all are going to keep your bud strong!

Chow for now
Ange



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  • EISSA7
    Fingers crossed that you get positive news on Jan. 8th!! You are a go getter that deals with a lot BUT still shows up every day and does the best to live a healthy life.....I like that!! emoticon
    163 days ago
  • LORI-K
    I love the flower and the new year analogy! I appreciate your candid thoughts on last year and the year ahead.
    I hope the new year brings you relief and answers to your condition. We are kind of in same boat....waiting for help. Waiting for answers. But we have hope. Hang in there!
    I will be here rooting you on and lending support. I’m so thankful we are friends. I appreciate you so much Ange!
    Wishing you a Happier New Year.
    Hugs and love.
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    167 days ago
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